Christmas seasons!

Hm.... Christmas.... Not much celebration for me this year... It was quite quiet and rather simple one celebrated with the ones I love... First "celebration" was at T.G.I Friday, a place I wanted to go for so long and finally came true... Haha... I told Simon about celebrating Christmas together earlier since he will be back in his hometown for Christmas and I did not give him a choice of where to go since I have decided T.G.I Friday it is!! Even though that was Monday when we went... Hm... The food was great... My standard of course... I am not so sure about Mr. Chai who is very choosy with food and always gives comments on food which will make you feel he is someone very good in cooking.... Seriously, till now, I still do not believe that he doesn't know how to cook even though he has told me a hundred times that he really doesn't know.. Hm~~~~ I guess not only me that think so.... We managed to do some window shopping but had to rush back campus for practice.... The practice for Christmas Celebration of Parit Buntar Baptist Church on the following day.... Yea.... The following day and that was our first and last practice for the mime and song performance... We can actually skip this part... Hehe... Then the Christmas Celebration at church was.... hm.... A lot of people came... Mostly non-believers? Perhaps half-half... Many songs and carols were sung... We , USMers, were in charge of the two performances I said earlier only. The mime we did was "Angel In Disguise", quite a nice song by Corrine Mae. I guess we also used the least time ever to practise a mine for my whole 4 years in Uni. The song performance "I can only imagine" was done by Simon, the vocalist; Derrick, the pianist and Terence, the guitarist. I liked both of the songs. I had a great time with uni fellows and church friends. Then off I sent Simon to the bus terminal.
The next time, I had to settle a couple of matters before going back like tidying someone's room, dumping my stuff back to my hostel, fixing the car, etc. Kinda sleepy all the way back but the faithful 988FM made a good company. When I reached home, I tried to recall the songs I have heard along the way but I can hardly remember. Oh no... Was I conscious?? haha... No la, they had some series going on. Nothing much after I reached home. Except mum was really happy with the roses I bought from Cameron Highlands for her abd we were trying to arrange them nicely in a few vases. Haha... That was because the vases were really small.
There were only me and mum for Christmas eve. We went for some shopping and walked around the pasar malam which was blasting Chinese New Year songs... Then whole night in front of the TV watching some outdated TVB series.
The next day was the Christmas day!! I didn't get to go church because I failed to convince mum that going to church on Christmad day is a good idea besides shopping or sleeping. Hehe... But at least we did have a great fellowship over lunch. Then I messed up my bro's surprise plan which got him so mad. Another round of shopping... Haih... I am now sick of Alor Star's shopping centres already. It's time for them to build new ones or add more shops. 　
As for the night, I have finally found one friend who is still in AS for the semester break. He is one of my good friends. We met at Old Town and chatted for about 4 hours. Wow... But it was realy nice catching up with friends. Miss the rest so much after being tortured by him for about 4 hours. Haha... Kidding... But I guess he will be too busy to read my blog. So I do not need to be scared to talk bad about him. =P
So much for my Christmas celebration.. The next day went out with him and another friend again at Halo Cafe... Hm.... It was fun also.....
No matter what happened next, do not really matter much since I am already back in campus again... Boring... But still can't wait for my outcoming trip-- To Kuantan for Keng Wai's wedding!!!!

SakitNya...

Haha... See the handiplasts on my fingers?? Hehe... Those are the results of polishing and grinding samples.... My samples are quite small - 10mm X 10mm. At first I did not realize as well, until I saw one of my fingers was bleeding... Seriously, I did not sense it happened that time. But I started to feel the pain afterwards. Thanks Yeam Thean and Angeline for the handiplasts. Those I used in the photos are new ones that I bought on the way back home. I bought extra as well to spare. Actually I wanted to buy one whole box but it has 200 stripes.. That's too much.. Haha.... You have no idea how dirty it will get shortly after started grinding... I wanted to buy the plastic ones but not this cloth ones... I even wanted to buy the cartoon ones but no point la since I have to change it everyday if I need to do grinding... Notice the nail polish? Haha.. Wanted to remove the nail polish but my dear roommate asked me to leave it because it can play a part to protect my nails. Seriously, it did help because my nails didn't break a bit... =) *peace*
Looking forward for CPR at Cameron Highlands.....

Padas White Water Rafting

The day we came back from mount KK, we went to Poring hot spring. I always like hot water bath. It was an outdoor hot spring that we went to. It was fun though the water to fill up the tub was really slow and we only had one hour there. But it was good enough to relieve the tension on our legs after the climb. Cool... Somehow I started coughing after I came down from the mountain... Mum said I should just stay up there. Haha...
We reached back KK town around 9.30p.m. After taking bath, we went out for celebration!!! Haha... But only four of us - Simon, Yan Wai, Derrick and I. Kian Beng wanted to rest. Sze-Lyn and Jason were tired also so they only went nearby to have dinner. At first I was quite excited but became too tired to enjoy the food after started eating. But the dinner was good... The price were reasonable. Haha.. I considered it cheap actually. After went back to Akinabalu, I had to pack my stuff because we will go for Padas the next day and then go straight to airport after that.
Woke up early to make sure all my things were packed then off we go for Padas. We had to be quick to avoid delay because we need to board our flight at 9.15p.m. Thank God that everything went on smoothly. We had our lunch at Tenom town. Then took a train to Pangi. I was at first excited to get myself wet. But after the safety briefing, I started to feel scared.... When we were in the river, I can hear my heart beating fast. We passed the first two rapids and all went well... But when we came to the third - Washing machine, our raft overturned. I was all the while concentrating on paddling instead of looking in front to see what happen. Out of a sudden, I was trapped under the boat. I was really panic. But I managed to catch the crosstube and catch a breath. I grabbed the life line and got out of the boat. I heard the guide shouted loudly asking us to let go of the life line. Then I saw the boat turned back to normal position towards me... Opss... But I managed to get out and grab the life line again. I was the first one being pulled back into the boat. We were all panic and held on to the life line. So it took quite some time to turn the boat back. And we actually passed through the fourth rapid as well which was Merry-go-round. Simon and Jason were far behind the boat and we only have 3 paddles back in the boat. That was crazy man! All we know that time was to save the two and get back the rest of the paddles. Kena scolded of course because we didn't follow instructions and let go of the life line at once. That experience taught us a lot but also terrified us. At least me and Kian Beng I guess.... I did not really know how to swim and always panic when I am in water especially when my legs do not touch the ground. Kian Beng did not know how to swim at all... Then he told us that there were still a few more big rapids... Again, I.... Haha... After two big rapids, he said the rest were just mild ones. Then he told us about the big rapid we just passed which was called the Big Sucker. If our boat overturns there and we are trapped by the current, we might keep turn there if we do not know how to come out. I was terrified because I thought it was the next one coming up... Crazy man! Shock of my life... After that I slowly calmed down because the danger was over. Kian Beng was really brave. She tahan till the last... Me..?? I just hoped that time I could get out of the boat and wait for them somewhere. But I have told myself, this is the place I will definitely go back again if I have the chance to after I learn how to swim better and get rid of my phobia....
Again, we had good weather that time... Not so hot... So we did not get sun burn much.... And that's the last chapter of our trip to KK.... We did not take photos of the rafting but we brought back unforgettable memories... =) *peace*

Indescribable....

I've made it! I've made it!!!! Haha... I have made it to the top of Mount KK but all thanks to the guide who dragged me up the last few hundred meters. Haha...
As I have said in the earlier post that I wasn't feeling quite well and I admit that I didn't really train much also, so I was really worried that I can't make it even to Laban Rata. We started off journey with high spirit but I already got very tired when we reached the first pondok. But they said that is normal because we just warmed up. But truly the next one or two km were easier. Then came the rocky path and steps which were harder especially when the legs started to get tired. Thank God for the walking stick we bought. Haha... oh man! I really walked like old folks. Also, I am really thankful because I did not carry anything. Poor Simon has to carry the backpack which contained two people's things. But most of the heavier things we have left with the porter la... But still.. Poor Simon.. =P Thanks to Yan Wai also who helped me to carry the EOS bag which happened to be quite heavy at the end.. Hehe... Derrick was way ahead of us. Four of us (Simon, Kian Beng, Yan Wai and I) were hiking together; Sze-Lyn and Jason at the back with the guide and porter. The last two kilometers were tiring but seeing the rest striving motivated to go on. At last, we have made it to Laban Rata around 5p.m.. After dinner we went to the place we stayed which I have forgotten the name! Isyk! None of us slept well that night due to the migrain and headache. Started off the second part of the journey around 2.30p.m. Still dark and can't really see the road in front of you. After around 0.5km, I felt like dying.. No la.. Felt like vomitting... Wanted so much to give up. Even the guide kept telling me that I shouldn't go on if I am not feeling well... But I decided to keep walking after resting for awhile. It took another 2.7km to reach the summit from Laban Rata. Almost half of the way we got up to Laban Rata. So that reminded me how long I have to go which indirectly made me feel that I sure cannot make it. I was left far behind from the rest that time already. But I slowly picked up my pace and met up with Yan Wai, Jason and Kian Beng. Then Jason left us behind. Kian Beng decided to stay when she reached the check point. Yan Wai and I still struggled to go on while the guide kept telling us that we should stop if we cannot make it. When we reached 8.0km, we thought we should just stop there. We even took photos there. A few China tourists came and took photos there also. When they left, they saw us still sitting. So they persuaded us to go on since we were already so close. We agreed but we told each other we'll just see how far we can go. After a few hundred meters, I was really exhausted because the road was quite steep. The guide saw and he took me by hand and led me to walk the easier path. When I came to the last 2oo meters I guess, I wanted so much to give up and he asked me to sit by the side which was not as cold. After a few minutes, I regretted and called out for the guide and said that "tak puas hati la kalau sampai sana." After he heard that, he dragged me up there no matter how many times I told him I cannot make it already because it was kind of hard for me to breath. I told him I really cannot make it. Then he said "Boleh, mesti boleh. Kenapa cakap tak boleh? Janganla menangis, nanti saya menangis juga." Joker la him... Finally, I've made it!!!! And guess what I did when I reached the signbooard.... haha... I cried!! I don't know why but I just cried. Jason and Yan Wai who were standing there were shocked I guess by my reaction. I guess those were tears of joy.. Haha.. I seriously do not know how I got myself up there. Unbelievable... "Lene, people like me also can make it, sure you can one la. So go for it girl!" The weather was very good that day that we can see the sunrise very clearly that day. The guides did say that we were indeed very lucky. Too bad my camera was not with me so I did not take photos but Derrick did. He took a lot of nice photos. For this time, I did not care much about the sunrise. Being able to stand up there was the greatest challenge that I thought I could not achieve. But all glory to God that I was reminded that nothing is impossible! =) But really, I would have given up even before I reached the check point, when I started to feel like vomitting. I did not get to stay there for long to take photos because I reached late, really late. Going back to the place we stayed was not that difficult and scary as the guide told me maybe because now we can see the route. Seriously, he really likes to scare people...
We took our own sweet time over the breakfast to have some rest. Then we started off the last 6km back to the starting point. Huh... That was long... The first 2 km were okay. Then I felt the pain on my legs. Then one side of my sport shoes spoilt. I had to use my name tag string to tie the whole thing together. I should have take a photo of that. Haha... The guide was so good that he gave me his name tag string to tie. Hehe... Seriously, the walking stick helped a lot. Without it, maybe I will opt to roll down the trail instead of walking. Haha... Slow and steady was what we did as we went down because we do not want to hurt our knee. Thanks to the guy who told us that. One friend of ours whom we met there got his knees swollen when he reached because he was going very fast. As I was going down, I kept wondering how did I actually got up to Laban Rata the day before. Thank God!! I think the funniest part was we were so happy when we saw the waterfall because that showed we were reaching soon. After the last corner, we knew that we can see the Timpohon gate.... But we can also see the long stairs we had to take to reach Timpohon Gate which will make you feel like "aw, why la put stairs at such a place??" My right knee was really painful already because all these while there is something wrong with my right knee but I do not know what is it. Simon gave me his walking stick which meant I used two walking sticks to go up the stairs. Argh.... that was.... I don't know... Hahaha.... It was just so great to reach the gate!!!!! Amen!!!! I remembered that time when they asked me " will you climb KK again?" My answer that time was "NO!" but now when I think back I think I might.... I had a great experience there though I can't walk properly like a normal person for few days, I can't sit down and get up easily for few days and I have headache when I see stairs. Hahaha...
My only regret-- I did not take a solo photo at the summit with the signboard because I was too busy crying!!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!!! That should be the reason why I go up there again... To take a solo photo at the peak!!!!!
To be honest, it took me many days to believe and remember that I have made it to the top. It all seemed unreal, like a dream... Besides the pain I felt on my legs and knees, I couldn't recall how I got up and down... It was total 17.4km... I went up to 4096.2m above sea level.... Oh man! Now I know I have been there. I have left my footprints there at Mount KK... and one day, I might go back there again to retrace the path I have taken....

KK

Our Padas plan yesterday failed because they said the water was too high, too fast and too dangerous for us to go... There was another place that we can go, but I was not so sure about the name since I did not join the discussion. We have all decided to wait we come down from mount KK because the other one is only level 2 & 3. Since we have come all the way, why miss the level 3 & 4? But if we still cannot go on the last day, then we migt have to go to the other place...
We ended up at two islands - Pulau Sapi and Pulau Manukan, snorkeling... Serioously, that was my first time snorkeling... I do not know why am I so afraid of water when my legs can't reach the ground, and I get panic very easily. But I had fun... Saw Nemo!! Haha.... They wondered why I get so excited when I heard of nemo and I have no idea too... Maybe because I am dory gua.... But what I saw were not very clear because I could wear my spec while snorkeling... Also, many of the corals there were died because too many people have gone to these places. Hopefully I will get to snorkel soon and I hope I won't get panic to easily next time... *peace*
Then we came back to the KK town again and walked back to our hostel following the waterfront route. As we were walking back, we passed by one street where they sell a lot of food, snacks, etc. A lot of nice food there and most importantly they were cheap also. Haha... Simon bought some fried crab which were nice and cheap. The one smaller in size was RM 0.50 each and the bigger one was just RM 2.00. That was really cheap man!!!!! We went back hostel with the food we've got and rested for awhile before we went out again for some walk and more food. We went to Wisma Merdeka and then met up with Yan Wai's friends who then brought us to try some nice bread with kaya and butter. Sounds normal but the bread they served were really soft. Then we had this fried dumpling that I like very much. They said it's just normal Hakka dish, but I am not a Hakka and quite few Hakka at my place maybe. Then they showed us around in UMS... Man! That la consider university. Engineering campus should be just one small corner of UMS... But we were told us about some other "stories" of UMS....
On the way back, Andrea's car punctured. The gentlemen tried their best to fix it but the spare tyre in her car cannot be used and the one in her boyfriend's car cannot fit. At the end, I guess they left the car there.
I was really tired and wanted so much to get some rest because I have not been sleeping well these few days. Somehow, my cough got even worse yesterday night. I cough "continuous", non-stop until I cannot tahan. Thought I felt better after drinking some warm water. But the effect did not stay for long. I can't recall much and I do recall I coughed the whole night. Hopefully I did not wake Kian Beng and SL up or disturb their sleep... Kinda sleepy now...
Today is considered as the resting day in order to keep the energy for the next two days which is for climbing mount KK!!! I will surely get up there!!!!! Haha....

First stop - Kudat!

We're are now back in Kota Kinabalu after spending one night at Kudat!!! I shall not talk about how I got to the LCCT from my hometown because it was not really a pleasant journey since I was sick and kept coughing all the way. My first time taking flight-- not so good as well... Reason being I was coughing all the way also due to the air condition. I was so scared that I might wake the guy sitting beside me and I was even more worried when the guy beside me and in front of me started coughing... Haha.... I managed to get the seat near window so I managed to see all the nice view... Haha... First time ma, sure more excited... But there is something that I think I should say is that our flight was delayed 5 hours from the original time la...
After we reached KK, we went straight to Kudat to meet up with Yee Ting and her friends... It took us about 3 hours to get there but according to Yee Ting, that is considered near already.. I felt like it took forever to reach because I was really really hungry... But the dinner we took after we got there was great! I think the pictures we took could explain more but I can only upload when I get back. After the dinner, we went to Esplanade for a walk. A place where they usually hang out. Though nothing much, but quite fun to go with a gang of friends. Also, there were people singing karaoke in open air. Cool.... The next morning, we went jalan-jalan at the old town areas and took a lot of random snaps. Then we went to have "brunch"... We had Fish Head Beehoon, Prawn Beehoon and Tomyam Beehoon which were really nice....

After that we headed towards the TIP of BORNEO.... Super nice place.... The sea, the view, the wave, everything... so nice.... Another nice place after that was Pantai Kulambu.... The thing I like the most about this place is the super fine sand.... So soft... The water is very clear..... Again, lots of photos were taken there..... I wish to blog more details but I think maybe I will do it later when I have more time.....

Photos from the Tip of Borneo



Photos from Pantai Kulambu

Tomorrow we will go for Padas white water rafting!!!!!
By the way, Sze-Lyn, Jason and I still not very feeling well.. I am a bit better than them.... Hopefully I can recover soon...... Pray for me.... Pray for us....

Here I come, Sabah!!!

Back in Parit Buntar again before leaving for KL, together with Yan Wai and Kian Beng. Tomorrow 7 of us will be taking flight to Sabah!!!! (ps: This is my first time taking flight~ Hehe..) The bad news I know is that out of the 7 persons, there are 4 that have fallen sick and not recovered yet. I am one of them. I was sick since 28th Nov, the day I went back to home town. I went to see doctor at our university's Pusat Kesihatan before I went back. But the medicine she gave me didn't really help. Instead, the chinese medicine which tastes really awful helped a lot... I had fever, sore throat and then cough... Till now, I still cough as if the whole lungs will come out very soon. But thank God it is much better now. I just hope that it will subside before we climb mount KK.
When I was on the way back here, I received message from my friends that we will be having seminar tomorrow which those students under my supervisor must come. But I will be in airport that time checking in already. I have tried to ask them what's the seminar about and also tried to send message to my lecturer to tell her about it. But she hasn't reply me yet. I am quite worried that she will be mad at me. But I have planned this much earlier and I was notified about this seminar like 2 hours ago. Now I just have to pray that she will be fine about it. Hopefully.....
Somehow, this incident has influenced me a little... Not as excited as before because need to worry about the seminar.... =( mood spoiler....

VBS!!!

My first VBS experience was in Aaron's church in Ipoh. That was great! Few of us from the CF went to help out as group leaders and worship team. I cannot recall how many children were there but for sure, a lot... It was really fun playing with the kids... Perhaps my experiences being a nursery teacher and having a great mum running a nursery do help me a lot to get along with kids. That VBS experience in Ipoh somehow inspired Sister Santa to have one at our church as well. I was excited to hear that. But of course, we do not expect to have one as big scale as the one in Aaron's church.
So back to this recent VBS in PBBC, the theme was "Paradise Island". Joshua and Sze-lyn(SL) were in charge of the decoration. Believe me, they have done very very great job. When all the props were set, the stage and everything looked so nice. I wish to upload a photo of the stage here but I am yet to get the photos from SL. It was a bit tiring though for most of us doing the deco because it was right after exams and people like Aaron still has to work also. But I guess we all had fun and a sense of achievement when seeing the outcome of our hard works.. Hehe...
One the first day of the real thing, the four of us were actually quite tired because we worked till quite late the night before. But I believe we were energized during the Praise and Worship time although it requires quite some energy... Haha.... So happy to see all those kids following us to do the actions for the songs. It's true, most of them did... expect few macho ones... Haha... Aaron and I were in charge of the story. Each day we have different stories to bring out different values. We blind-folded the kids and brought into dark room as we told the stories. We used all kinds of things to make them feel as if they were really experiencing it. I think some of the things we used worked out well and we were so proud of it... Haha... At least I am... hehe... Really enjoyed working with Aaron. We enjoyed too as story tellers.... Haha....
Yan Wai, Derrick and Simon came to help as well... Yan Wai was in charged of games together with SL, I didn't get to see how he got along with the kids. Did he bully them? Or he actually kena bullied? Haha... Then Derrick as the group leader of about 10 kids I guess... Most of them were quite young... Seriously, this was the first time I saw the "fatherly side" of Derrick when he grabbed the younger ones so that they won't run around... I hope he is not reading my blog... haha.... And, Joy likes him a lot.. Can see her following him around.. Hehe... Simon came to help as photographer for one and a half day... Haha... He didn't really have much contacts with the kids. But he sure did take a lot of nice photos for us with his DSLR... haha... SL has a lot of fans as well... because she is the nice jie jie that you can bully... =P
For my personal experience and feelings, I enjoyed all the time there. Although it took me long time to get myself out of the bed every morning, although I felt very sleepy the moment before the P&W starts, although there were some really mischievous kids, although I was very tired running around in the dark story room and pulling the mattress & fish net with all my strength, although I got so tired after going back home, but I always feel the excitement when I am with those kids. Perhaps that's my calling to work with kids..?? God knows... I don't yet... It is really great to see how little things you do can actually affect the kids... They all absorb fast... Things you inculcate or put in their mind would somehow mould them to be someone... But because of this also, we have to be very careful... The wrong things we taught might give them wrong values as well... I always salute Sunday school teachers because from the few that I know, they always try their best to bring out values in very creative ways in order to make these things stay in the heart of the children... For me, that is not an easy task... But I really love to be with kids... Some say, it's because I am like one of them, or look like one of them.... -_-|||
By the way, did I mention we have 42 kids for the VBS? Our target was 50. Two days before VBS, we only have 24 people signed up if I am not mistaken. On Sunday itself, many people signed up and we reached the amount of 42!!!! Praise the Lord!!! Let's continue to pray for these kids that what they have learnt will stay with them and make impact in their lives!!
Soon, I will post some photos of VBS.... some editting needed...

Just another semester break??

Of course not! This is considered as my last semester break because after the next semester, I think most of us ( the final year's) should be working or start searching for job... Yea, I am feeling kind of weird... Supposed to be in bed by now but the feeling to blog stopped me... Used to be very excited to go back home, though I still am now.. But probably that is because most of my friends have went back to hometown as well... Also, I am obliged to go home because my younger bro will be back from UMS tomorrow... I am just kidding... Right after all my papers, we started to prepare for VBS (which I will talk about it in another post) and then the real thing. I have been spending almost the whole week with people, a lot of people.... Now, when everything is over and turns back normal, I don't quite fit in. Feel kinda lonely though.... Perhaps that is also another reason why I fell the eagerness to go back home... To somewhere I can feel belonged again....

Random thoughts

There may be times that you are so afraid to face but they still come anyway. Why fear when you know best that God is in control of all things? Good or bad, He has His plans.....

Ending SOOOoon.....

After this debate, I will only need to wait for the individual interview next week then I am done with LHP 456. Yes!!!!! Although it doesn't not have final or need to do assignments, but still getting lazier to go class, to talk and talk and talk.... But the one good thing is no need to sit for final la... This is why I chose this subject initially... Hehehe.....

Family Camp '08 @ CCC

Had been a little bit too busy for me recently until I forgot I wanted to blog about the CF Family Camp I joined. As the final year students in CF said, this might be the last family camp that we can join unless we stay for master. Well, I joined the camp with only one intention which was to enjoy the camp and treasure the fellowship I can have with the others. I didn't really expect much from the camp itself, not that I didn't want to learn anything but probably I didn't think about it much since I was also quite busy before the camp.
This year, I think we had the most campers ever since I came to USM. I am proud to say that I have never missed any of the family camp. For each camp, I brought back different things with me. I was really glad that many first year students have decided to join the camp and also for those like Yee Ting and Siaw Ping who joined us as well. For me, I think it will take me a lot of courage to join a camp that most people have already known each other but I do not really know them at all. I hope they enjoyed the time as well.
This year we had our camp at the seaside - Christian Conventional Centre located at Batu Ferringgi. My first year, we went to a "kuala" - Kuala Gula; Second year, we went up to a hill - Maxwell Hill; Third year, we went to resort - Cinta Sayang Resort; This year, we went to the beach - Batu Ferringgi. This place was a very familiar place for me. I had a lot of memories at this place too. But that's not what I want to talk about for this post.
Hm... Where should I start?? Ok, when we were leaving from campus, it was raining very heavily but I can see that everyone was still very excited. It only took us about 45 minutes to 1 hour to reach our destination i guess because I only managed to sleep for a very short time. I really like the place a lot. It's really a place for camp and I always like staying in dorms for camps. Only for camps... Hahaha...
Initially I wanted to write down everything that I remember but it will be too lengthy. Perhaps I just want to share about few things that touched my heart or significant to me.
1. As I have said earlier that I only went with expectation to enjoy the camp rather than learning from the camp. Haha... Sounded like I did not trust the speaker... Of course that's not true. I knew very well that Annette is a very powerful speaker. But for those previous camps, I remembered I always pray that God will speak to me and let me see new things. For this camp, I have no preparation at all. But even the first session on the very first night has touched me so much. It was as though the voice was meant to speak directly to me personally. Those words pierced into my heart. After the first session, I was really eagerly expecting the coming sessions. I admit that I have said that I wanted to change in many many camps. But everytime it didn't really work. Though I know that I have not totally changed but I have experienced the changes in me that make me want to do better so that one day I can really fulfill what I have said to HIM, what I have promised HIM. After I came to uni, I didn't really know since when or why that I have lost the confidence I had in myself. So many times that I tried to avoid things and thought that someone greater than me would handle it better. But the day I left the camp, I brought along the seed which Annette gave to us and asked us to name it. I have named my seed - Mustard Seed (though it is a green bean) but there's a Sunday school song which talks about the Mustard seed has grown into big tree which gives shade to people, place for birds to build the nest. I truly hope that one day I can be a blessing to people around even there's so little that I can do and can bear the fruit of the spirit. Also, I was reminded of a song I have learnt from the National Conference. "Leaving my past behind, knowing much more I'll find, taking the step into the unknown..." After these in uni ( sound like many many years), things that happened really helped to know more about my own self like things I didn't let go after all the years, the struggles, the strongholds that I tried to deny. But they have all made me stronger.
2. I really managed to have very good fellowship with the juniors especially those who were in my group. For some of them, I really managed to spend time talking and chatting with them. For some, I sang songs together with them. For some, I played different different games with them. Even for some, I let them "bully" me for the sake of entertaining them since they did not have anything else better to do. Hah! Though they called me "senior" or "auntie" but they still played with me as if I am one of their age. Sometimes, I was kind of worry that I might miss out or neglect someone, making them feel abandoned. But these juniors really impressed me. They will find their activities and hang out with people not only from their batch. Cool~~ Because I know that sometimes I will tend to stick to people I have already known very well. I was really blessed by them.
3. This year, I finally managed to guess who my BEE was... He was surprised that I managed to figure it out, I was surprised that my guess was right too.. HAHAHA... Perhaps my brain started functioning.... Hahaha... I guess I can now graduate happily, without regret... Haha... Too bad that my honey managed to find me out although his first guess was WRONG!! I thought I managed to con him... Hahaha.... Anyway, I managed to confuse him a little bit. Hehe... There is longer story to this honey and bee thingy because I myself ruined my initial plan. Haha.. And that story just explained how blur I was....
4. One last thing that I can remember for now.... Haha.... There are some other things but forgive me because I always have memory loss... Well, I am never a good game player, especially for those games which need to use my brain. Just like what I said just now, I think my brain doesn't function well most of the time. Haha... BUT, I was proud of myself that I managed to get the answer TWICE for the CLUEDO game although there were people who were one step faster than me!!!! Never mind... Haha.... Also, I managed to get the clue of the games Edmond asked us to guess. Haha... Proudnya... Honestly, I am very bad at all these but somehow my brain worked that night... Haha.... But also sorry la my teammates for pictionary, because I did not know how to draw ENGLAND.... Hehe... I did not know the flag of ENGLAND.... I am deeply sorry about it. Now I will remember the flag of ENGLAND for the rest of my life...
Ok, still, it became a very long post... But who cares... This is the only way to help me remember things that I really want them to be remembered since I always memory loss.... This is not really long-term or even short-term memory loss... Maybe I should consider it as "Random Memory Loss"? =)

无题

一直以来我都很坚持，但最近或近几个月我的坚持开始动摇了。我需要答案，但我知道这个答案不是我一个人努力就可以找到，但可以和我努力的人却不在乎。。。我还能怎样？太多的话想说，却找不到聆听的人。。。我还应该执著吗？

CoNvO!!

The day after the OLR was our beloved seniors' convocation. As usual we went in big group to congratulate and share their happiness on their BIG DAY! Haha... But everytime when I went for convo, I just can;t help thinking whether I can escape convo... Haha... I'm just kidding. It only happens once in a life time unless I want to take another degree or PhD or master... Here goes another batch of seniors and now my batch is the older people now. And soon, it will be our turn. Haih~~~ I just hope that we can still keep in touch after we all graduate.... "Take care all my seniors and all the best in your work no matter where you are~~"

PS: Wanted to upload some photos of the convo but I just realized I have very little in my own camera. Gotta wait till I collect from the rest~~

Of course, as usual we did not end our trip to convo there in USM. This year we went to another place for steamboat feast... Wow... The food was quite nice. I enjoyed the ice cream a lot. Too bad Simon and I had to leave earlier because we have a bus to catch at 11.30p.m. in Parit Buntar. Sad~~~

ONE LIFE REVOLUTION!!

Haha... I am now back in Parit Buntar before I leave for Alor Setar for the rest of my mid sem break. The week before the break was crazy, busy and exhausting. First was the ONE LIFE REVOLUTION in Gurney Plaza, Penang. Aaron, Simon and I went as volunteers to help out in the exhibition for two sessions. It was really AWESOME! The response was quite good. I really hope that those who have gone for the exhibit will bring home something with them. Yeah! One Life Do Something!! This exhibit actually got us pumped up... So Aaron and I were planning to help out in the Kuantan one as well... Haha... Perhaps anyone would wanna sponsor us the bus tickets???? Hahaha... I remembered the last day everyone (the crews and volunteers) just went crazy... Haha... The first day I was helping out in the clinic... And I realized that I so not suitable to work in the clinic... Haha... Then I went tp help out as usher. I enjoyed it though the people didn't really respond on the very first day and first shift somemore.
On the third day, last shift, I was helping at the merchandise area. Wow! The response was very very good... I think I enjoyed this the most... Haha...
As my personal experience in the exhibit, I went through the story of Srey Mom... It was really heart-breaking at first. But thank God that she has made it through. She is very strong and encouraged me in many ways.
I am looking forward for the one in Kuantan... But that still depends on Simon Chai whether he allows us to stay at his place. Haha...

~~SeLaH~~

At first I was still thinking whether I should go for Selah or just stay in the room and sleep for the whole day. Somehow I have decided to go Selah... Now, I have no regret going to Selah...
I had a great time at Selah. We spent the morning in Air Itam Dam. I brought along my cross-stitch.. Yes, cross-stitch... I am glad to say that it is almost done... Just left a little bit more. I was sitting by the dam as I did my cross-stitch, then I saw two tortoises that swam in the water. They constantly came out to the surface to get some air I guess.. Then they went back into the water again. Somehow, that scene spoke to me that I need to give time to myself and God constantly even though I may already get used to the business of life. It is important not only to listen to myself but also to God. Yeah, I forgot to mention that it was a girl's Selah and I really enjoyed the fellowship of sisters. Haha....
In the afternoon, we went back to FES office where we did more reflections which really encouraged me and somehow gave me strength to face situation that I am in now. Though I was not given a clear answer of what I should do but it gave me peace in my heart and enabled me to look at things from other perspectives. I can say that my heart has never been this peaceful after so long of chaotic life... Haha... Not really chaotic la.. It is just that my mind and my heart were always been occupied by too many things that I might not even able to help anything. I enjoyed the time just to be quiet and be alone. I enjoyed the scenery and the beauty of nature and God's creation. I enjoyed the time sharing with others and hearing their comments. I simply enjoyed this day and I am thankful for what God has planned for me. "O Lord, You have examined my heart and know everything about me." Psalm 139:1 He knows what I need the most at this point of my life... And I know very well that all I need to do is HOLD ON TO HIM....
Thank you Lord for Your wonderful love....

~Fruitful~

Wow... It has been so long since I last updated my blog... The last post was during LI I guess....
These two weeks are quite busy and eventful. Haha... I have finally selected my FYP title and got my title on Friday night. Thank GOD, I got the title I selected. Then I don't remember what really happened other days but I do remember I was really exhausted when it came to Friday. Many who went to prayer meeting would have seen how blur I was. And yet, I went to Sunway Carnival that afternoon to watch The X-Files which turned out to be quite disappointing. Perhaps I was expecting some aliens to come out... Haha.... But as I remembered, I was not a big fan of The X-Files series.... Then I had a wonderful dinner at Manhattan Fish Market in Autocity with Simon. The food was great, the fellowship was great~~ When I came back to campus, I realized that I need to prepare for my LI poster as I won't be around during the weekend and the exhibition will be on the coming Thursday. I only managed to sleep around 3.00a.m..
The next morning, Simon, Aaron and I went for the volunteer's training of the One Life Revolution Exhibition that will be going on next week. The training was held in KDU, Penang. It was a very informative training where we learned not only about things we need to do during the exhibition, but we also learned more detailed about HIV/AIDS. Right after the training, both Simon and I rushed back to Parit Buntar to meet up with Sze-lyn and Jason to go to KL for PASSION CONFERENCE!! I have no regret going to the conference despite we have to rush back to Parit Buntar the night itself because few of us have class and the stupid OBE Accreditation which are unmissable. Anyway, Passion was AWESOME! The last concert I went to was Planetshaker's which was during my first year in uni. Somehow I enjoyed more during this Passion KL. The whole thing was really great. The story shared by Louie really touched me. I enjoyed the worship so so much until I almost lost my voice.. Haha... Managed to meet some of them from Camp Cameron. I was so happy to be able to meet Ai Wei~~ We started our journey back after the supper at Murni. This time, it's turn for Simon to drive. After we entered the highway, he was too tired, so I took over and drove. I was super sleepy so I kept pinching myself to keep myself awake... Hehe... I only managed to drive until Simpang Pulai and I knew very well I cannot "tahan" anymore. So poor Simon had to drive again. We reached Parit Buntar around 5.00a.m.. Wow~~ Thank GOD for protection.
After coming back here, everyone who went still very excited with the Passion KL and I believe we did keep Passion Jakarta in our prayer. After reading the 268blog, I am sure that God has touched many more people there. Hallelujah!!!
Then I started to rush for my poster. Thank GOD that I managed to finish "cut and paste" in one night... Hehe... This part was easy actually. Just the selecting info and printing part took a lot of time. Then two "short" assignments came and I needed to prepare for the bible study... I was very nervous because I was my first time leading bible study. I do not know why am I so tension or what to be afraid of, but STILL I was scared... Hahaha.... Anyway, I have made it through the first. Thanks a lot to Derrick who has helped me to answer a lot of questions asked by my dear CG member, Simon Chai. But his questions did help me to learn more also la... Just that I became tension when I do not know how to answer. Hehe...
Well, later will be my LI exhibition already. Am I fully prepared? Not really.. Haha.. I am supposed to read my report to refresh me of what I have learnt but I ended up blogging. That's what I always do - get diverted easily... Ok, so I should end here. But I am really excited now about the One Life Exhibition next week and also my spoken English presentation!! Please pray that the exhibition will bring great impact to all who will come... Hope to see you guys there if possible too...

Broken

Came across this song today..... I got to know this song from dear.... And I like it~~~ If not mistaken, his blog also has this song..... He will surely say I follow him one.. Don't care... =P

~~sLeEpY dAy~~

I was very sleepy today. I guess it was because I slept very late yesterday night... Super duper sleepy... Also I had not much things to do today... Went to do some peel tests today but this time I observed very very very carefully.. Haha... And I think I understand the results I obtained better today.. Hehe... After that, I just remembered I walked from one place to another place to get this and that... Finally I got back to my place... I watched the CDs one of the senior engineer gave me and all I can remember was I was fishing all the way in front of the computer... Haha~~ Then Ann "ajak" me to go lunch.. So I did... After lunch, nothing to do again.. So I started to chat with another young female senior engineer beside me... Until SK asked me to go to the line with him.. Nothing much to do there also.. He was trying to explain about the pick and place handler to me... But I can only recall seeing him walking here and there to take things la, calling don't know who la, etc....Haha... He was supposed to teach me to operate the machine but he got something else to do. So I went back to the office... Then, it was almost time for tea break already.. Haha.... Time passed quite fast though... Went with Way Foong, then came the rest of the gang.... After the break, just tried to tabulate the data I obtained... The time I finished already time to go back already... HooRay!!!! And my senior engineer told me that my supervisor said this Friday I no need to go work!!!! HAHAHAHA.... So happy now~~~~ Therefore, I only have two more working days for this week... Nyiak nyiak nyiak.... Thought of going home but I hope I can choose not to drive... But then no one will be fetching from the bus terminal then when I reach Alor Setar since mum doesn't have a car there... How le?? Hm~~~~~~ Or should I go back the week after?? So that I can celebrate Mother's Day.... Oh yea, now I remember I need to call someone~~~

The 9th Time

I went back to help my mum to shift house back to Alor Setar during the weekend. So I went back to the house at Jalan Delima, Penang after work on Friday... Almost all the things are packed in boxes already. So I went to online that night after dinner.... Had a quite tiring day that Friday because I did a lot of testing that whole and had been walking from one area to another area. Too tired to write my log book after coming back from the cyber cafe so I decided to sleep a little bit earlier because the next day was going to be a long day..
Woke up kinda early to carrying all the boxes down to the living room. Had breakfast with mum, bro and sis... Then we went back to wait for the lorry to come... When it finally came, all of us stunned.... Because it was very small... We knew very well that it can't fit all our things... Speechless... Mum called up the friend who helped us to find the lorry. Although mum kept on telling him few days earlier that we had a lot of stuff to shift, yet he insisted that this lorry is sufficient... Haih~~ So both my brothers were trying to talk to the driver and ask whether he could help us to find a bigger one. My sister called up her church friends to ask also.. Thank God that we finally managed to find a bigger one!!! But when the lorry came, it was nearly 12 o'clock already. However, it was definitely much better than making two trips. That Indian guy was quite "geng" because he really can squeeze many things into the lorry... Fully utilizing the space..
When the lorry left, we also left in two cars to Alor Setar then.... It was still ok for me to drive though it was really a hot weather to travel. But we managed to reached there safely... The lorry wasn't there yet when we reached our house. Of course la... How can the lorry be faster than the two cars... Some more one is Honda Civic... Haha... After lunch and some rest, the lorry was not here yet... The lorry only managed to reach around 6 o'clock in the evening... Sweat.... So we spent the whole night unpacking the things. Only managed to have dinner around 10 o'clock... Had ayamas.. haha.. Yum yum~~~
After dinner, i cannot tahan already... I wonder how come my brothers and sister still can watch series... Slept until 10 this morning... Mum and bro and sis already went to market.... Both my brothers and I left AS earlier to come back to Penang. Sis will be coming back later. The feeling was kinda strange when I left younger bro at home and elder bro at bus terminal to go back to KL.. Younger bro and sis will be staying near Tanjung Bungah while I will be staying at Sungai Ara.. Everyone is staying so far away from each other.... Kinda worry of mum staying alone at AS also... Will try to go back to visit her as much as possible if my financial allows... Hehe...
Quite tiring after driving for so long dy.. Gonna rest and write my log book tonight.....
Btw, this is the 9th time i shift house dy~~~ I think all of us are quite cekap in shifting house already which so much experiences.... My sis and elder bro will have more... Hehe.....
Perhaps this is why sometimes I really long to settle down... But I know to find "that place" is not easy.... But no matter how, I know someday I will go back "home" where I will stay eternally....

Another Day!!

Another day at my workplace with more rules and regulations, do's and dont's, etc... Just lepaking around with 3 other abandoned trainees.. Haha... Not really "lepak" lepak la... Just did nothing much lo.. Haha.... So I ended my third day of LI... Haha....
But I guess I'll get busier when I really start work la... So till then, I still have strength to online and update my blog....
So I'll have two more days then it will be weekend... Just wondering, do all/most working people count days like I do?? Haha.. I think only lazy pigs will... Haha....
It's really comfortable to stay with Sui Ying and her family.. They are all very very friendly and kind.. I really do not know how to thank them for everything...
Haven't really started writing my log book.. Most of my coursemates in the same company already started... So I think I should also... I mean start now! Hehe...

~~FiRsT dAy~~

Nothing much.. Just briefing and orientation.... Kinda boring... Just one thing that struck me today -- I FORGOT TO BRING MY LOG BOOK!!!! HaiYoh!! How come I so careless one?? Haih~~ There are 6 of us from the same course and another guy from EE school... So we still got each other to chat with when we were so boring just now... We also spent quite some time reading in the library while waiting for time to pass.. Haha.... But it was kind of exciting when we toured around the company... One thing that is very strange is that they do have a lot of mirrors everywhere... Why le?? I also don't know... The first day doing nothing also I am so tired already.. I cannot imagine how will I be after two months~~ Haha.....

Struggling~~~

Had my second last paper today.. One word to describe that paper-- bad.. I was really tired... I felt really sleepy half way through the exam... I believe my brain cannot function properly.. At the last moment only I realized that I have chosen the wrong question... ARGHHH!!!! So now it kinda spoiled my mood to study for the next paper.. I think I will watch a movie first then I study... Good idea??

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Finals have already started... Kinda stressed out already but still not in the mood to study... The next paper will be Thermodynamics which I really don't understand...
Finally got CF T-shirts today... Many may be sad and not really satisfied with the T-shirts.. But I am just so happy to see it or wear it.. Haha... Still wearing it after I tried just now~~ Maybe it is because I was the one who have been dealing with the printing and changing of designs.. Though I was not the one who designed it, but just so happy to see the products... But I know the designer was not very happy with it because that fellow changed the designed color... For me, it is still acceptable because I like this color better... But I understand artistic people sometimes really don't like people to change their design.. Haha...
Somehow my happy mood is suddenly disturbed when sis called and told me that mum is moving back to Alor Setar on 26 of April. This indicates that I need to find a place to stay for my LI... Place to stay is a matter... Financial is another matter... I knew that mum will be moving back to Alor Setar sooner or later... Just that I didn't expect it to be so soon... A bit helpless.. But I think I would prefer finding solutions for my matter than being so lost and helpless... I do like surprise but I do understand now that surprise is not always good... Haha... I have much more to worry now other than finals... This can help me to not focus on the stress caused finals, which is good in some ways also right? Haha~~~~

sUsHi FeAsT!!!!

Just finished my lab test... I suppose this would be the last lab test for my 4 years of Material Engineering course... HoOrAy!!!! I am not going to celebrate today because I think I have already celebrated yesterday night~~~ Guess where I went??? Haha.... I went to Sushi-Kin last night together with dear's coursemates.. Altogether 15 of us... I am not sure whether we are just so desperate for sushi or we are simply slumber... All of us actually will be having test today... I have LAB TEST and they have RELIABILITY test~~ But who CARES?? It's sushi!!! And the BUY 1 GET 1 FREE Promotion!!! Don't care so much when it comes to my favorite...
Since there were a lot of us, so we got a room on ourselves... Though I think it would be more fun sitting outside because I can take sushi NON STOP as they "pass by"... But it was still fun to have a room on our own because we can make as much noise as we want... And I also think we should get a room because SERIOUSLY, we were making a lot of noise... Everytime when we went out to take sushi, I think some customers must be cursing us because we always stand at the "starting point" and kidnap all the delicious sushi like Unagi and Salmon.... HAHA.... I just couldn't remember how much I have eaten.. But this was seriously the first time I just took the sushi without hesitating much about the "price"... It is just like eating buffet~~~ The Salmon Temaki handroll was very nice also with a big slice of Salmon.. Yum yum~~~
At the end of the "day", the 15 of us ate 126 plates of sushi!!!! Guess again, how much it cost?? RM336.90!!! Which means each person only need to pay RM 22.50 for what we have eaten... I was really full that night man!!! I just like sushi so so much... I'll never get boring of eating sushi.. Seriously, now as I think of it, I hope to go there again to have another sushi feast!!! I remember the first time I went to TAO, I was so happy to see sushi, so I ate a lot. But I got scolded because I am not supposed to eat so much sushi at TAO... But I still got to eat a lot of nice stuff at TAO... Maybe my next trip should be TAO!!!!

This is how much we have eaten~~~ Below: Dear and his coursemtes

Unagi~~ Yummy~~~

~~FiShErS oF MeN~~

"Come, follow Me, and I will make you fishers of men." Matthew 4:19

A Unique Breed
Fishermen: They're not always understood by the nonfishing fraternity. More often than not, they are looked at kind of oddly.
Fisher of men: They don't lend themselves toward neat ecclesiastical job descriptions.

Passionate
Fishermen: They are wiling to rise a godforsaken hours to pursue their love.
Fishers of men: They are passionate about their devotional life and are not deterred by their need for sleep.

People of knowledge and skill
Fishermen: They know the terrain of the stream and where fish like to hide out and what they like to feed on.
Fishers of men: They know the world people live in and the things they're being attracted to.

Characterized by singleness of purpose
Fishermen: They are focused and concentrated on the task at hand, consumed by one simple overarching concern, catching fish.
Fishers of men: They are highly singular, driven by one desire, to see people become mature disciples. That is, spending personal time daily with God, growing in prayer and understanding the Word, sharing Christ with others, and not only that, but going on to invest time and work in them until they too are reproducing those straits in others.

People of adventure
Fishermen: They are always looking for the next bed in the stream, never content with a fished-out hole but always on the lookout for the next productive place in the river.
Fisher of men: They are never content with maintenance but are always on the lookout for the next opportune spot in the world.

Stick to the basics
Fishermen: Old fishermen aren't particularly captivated by the latest fads and techniques.
Fishers of men:They are not easily drawn away from the basics of discipleship, prayer, scripture and evangelism.

Eager to share their knowledge and skill with others
Fishermen: They are only too eager to share their passion with someone of like passion.
Fisher of men: They know the great joy and exhilaration of catching men and are genuinely excited to share that joy with others.

Catch fish
Fishermen: True fishermen don't use the line, "You should have seen the one that got away." They, without commenting, just hold up their full stringer.
Fishers of men: They don't have any excuses or empty words, just a legacy of men who have been caught for Christ.


Everytime when I read this verse, I don't really understand the deeper meaning(or perhaps the real meaning) of the word "FISHERS OF MEN"... Now, I understand and I pray that God will teach me to be a good fisher of men...

Free Will or Predestination?

Yesterday night I was supposed to have night class - QC replacement class by Dr. Sabar, but I skipped the class... The reason being is we have invited Pastor Ian Bunton over to our CF to speak about the title "Free Will Or Predestination?". To me, this is kind of a big topic if I would try to understand it by myself... So I was eager to listen to him..
I have met Pastor Ian once in PBBC church retreat and found that he is really a humorous man. That time he told a story about the crack pot in one of the sessions. The story is very meaningful and still stays with me till now(As I said, I am very forgetful)... He came with another young handsome Hawaiian pastor, Pastor Blaine Deloach... By the way, Pastor Ian is a Canadian. I guess both of them have been staying in M'sia for years.
He started off the sermon by telling us some church histories.. Truly speaking, this is the first time I learned about all these histories. All this while, I only knew the existence of these people. I believe he managed to teach the history class in interesting way which actually caught my attention.. I always slept in history classes.... Haha...
So the argument about free will or predestination started when John Calvin and Jacob Arminius summarized the bible differently. According to Calvinism, the salvation is limited to certain chosen people only. When you're chosen, the grace given to you is irresistible which means no matter how you will still be saved by the grace of God. On the other side, Arminianism summarized that salvation is unlimited because God loves all His people and the grace of God is resistible because you can still choose not to be saved by the grace of God... People of those time, they are either on Calvin's side or Arminius' side. Both of them summarized from the same bible and came out with two different theology. So is God contracting Himself? I agreed with Pastor Ian that we, human beings, sometimes tend to think too rationally and systematically. All these things must make sense. It is already not making sense that the Son of God would come to the earth and died for us, the sinful beings on the cross... But He did and not asking us anything to pay Him back in return.. Why is this so??

This is the second last slide of Pastor Ian's sermon which I think is a very good answer to this question:

If Christianity is a relationship...

Then God's choices are a mystery....
(Just like everyone of us, when you are in a relationship, sometimes things you would do don't make sense at all and you just don't know how this happened...)

Then we too must have a choice....
(Even when He has the ability to know the outcome...)

Then he must necessarily limit himself in order yo relate to finite human beings...

God has given us the freedom to choose... Jesus did not die on the cross to make us believe in God. But it is because of LOVE that he came and died for us... He is the Way, the Truth and the Light.. No one goes to the Father except through Him... The choice is in our hands... We can choose to turn away and say that "I don't need the Way, the Truth and the Life.. I am fine with the way I am..." But if you understand why Jesus would die for us on the cross, if you believe that He is the only Way, the only Truth and the only Light that will lead us to the Father in heaven, all you need to do is just to LOVE Him back and do what He says... God will NEVER force us to LOVE Him or OBEY His Words..... It is your choice.... But the Father in heaven is grieving and says "Choose Life.."

~~LeaRniNg tO bE gRaTeFuL~~

Woke up this morning, struggled whether should I go class because it is just an one hour class... I'm so tempted to skip class. But since it is Dr. Cheong's QC class, so I think I should go because we will be having test this coming Wednesday. I dragged myself to the class and reached there at 8.55a.m.. To my surprise, no one in the lecture room. So I sat down and waited for awhile because I know my coursemates usually will come "on time". After 5 minutes, I have to accept the fact that there is no class today and I just couldn't remember when he said the class will be cancelled... Desperately I walked out to the corridor, hoping to see anyone of my coursemates. Then here come Wei Hua with his sleepy face.... He was just as blur as I am.. Haha... So I just "tumpang" his car back to hostel and start writing this blog. I am still grateful because since I am awake now, I can continue with my revision for QC. Or else, I think I will sleep until 12.oop.m. Haha...

Came across this verse, a good verse to meditate...
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore, I take pleasure in my infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
2 Corinthians 12:9~10

Most of my friends will be very busy this week, I just pray that God will give them strength each new day as they run the race.. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL~~~

sEeK yE FiRsT tHe KiNgDoM oF gOd

This morning's sermon actually spoke directly to me, or I considered it as answer to my previous post.. The main bible verse shared today is

"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6 : 33

Pastor Roland talked about 5 reasons why we need to seek the kingdom of God which I really found all these reasons suit my condition.
1. Emptiness
2. Loneliness
3. Guilt
4. Fear of death
5. I have forgotten what it was. Something about improvement I guess....

I have been worried about a lot of things lately. I even thought I am suffering from depression since I fulfilled quite a few of the symptoms... But probably it is just because I have done my English presentation on the topic "Depression" few weeks ago that caused me to be "weirdo"...

Anyway, I really need to continue with my revision for the QC test this coming week.. I have wasted a lot of time these two days..... CONCENTRATE!!!