A Story To Share....

A story that was emailed to me by a lovely sister I knew through SWEEP... Just thought want to share with people who reads my blog... May your soul be blessed...

I sat, with two friends, in the picture window of a quaint restaurant
just off the corner of the town-square. The food and the company were both especially good that day.


As we talked, my attention was drawn outside, across the street. There, walking into town was a man who appeared to be carrying all his worldly goods on his back. He was carrying, a well-worn sign that read, 'I will work for food.' My heart sank.


I brought him to the attention of my friends and noticed that others
around us had stopped eating to focus on him. Heads moved in a mixture of sadness and disbelief.

We continued with our meal, but his image lingered in my mind. We
finished our meal and went our separate ways. I had errands to do and
quickly set out to accomplish them. I glanced toward the town square,
looking somewhat halfheartedly for the strange visitor. I was fearful,
knowing that seeing him again would call some response. I drove through town and saw nothing of him. I made some purchases at a store and got back in my car.

Deep within me, the Spirit of God kept speaking to me: 'Don't go back to the office until you've at least driven once more around the square..'


Then with some hesitancy, I headed back into town. As I turned the
square's third corner, I saw him. He was standing on the steps of the store front church, going through his sack.

I stopped and looked; feeling both compelled to speak to him, yet
wanting to drive on. The empty parking space on the corner seemed to be a sign from God: an invitation to park. I pulled in, got out and approached the town's newest visitor.

'Looking for the pastor?' I asked.

'Not really,' he replied, 'just resting.'

'Have you eaten today?'

'Oh, I ate something early this morning.'

'Would you like to have lunch with me?'

'Do you have some work I could do for you?'

'No work,' I replied 'I commute here to work from the city, but I would
like to take you to lunch.'

'Sure,' he replied with a smile.

As he began to gather his things, I asked some surface questions. Where you headed?'

'St. Louis.'

'Where you from?'

'Oh, all over; mostly Florida.'

'How long you been walking?'

'Fourteen years,' came the reply.

I knew I had met someone unusual. We sat across from each other in the same restaurant I had left earlier. His face was weathered slightly beyond his 38 years. His eyes were dark yet clear, and he spoke with an eloquence and articulation that was startling. He removed his jacket to reveal a bright red T-shirt that said, 'Jesus is The Never Ending Story.'

Then Daniel's story began to unfold. He had seen rough times early in
life. He'd made some wrong choices and reaped the consequences. Fourteen years earlier, while backpacking across the country, he had stopped on the beach in Daytona. He tried to hire on with some men who were putting up a large tent and some equipment. A concert, he thought.

He was hired, but the tent would not house a concert but revival
services, and in those services he saw life more clearly. He gave his life
over to God

'Nothing's been the same since,' he said, 'I felt the Lord telling me to
keep walking, and so I did, some 14 years now.'

'Ever think of stopping?' I asked.

'Oh, once in a while, when it seems to get the best of me But God has
given me this calling. I give out Bibles, that's what's in my sack. I work
to buy food and Bibles, and I give them out when His Spirit leads.'

I sat amazed. My homeless friend was not homeless. He was on a mission and lived this way by choice. The question burned inside for a moment and then I asked: 'What's it like?'

'What?'

'To walk into a town carrying all your things on your back and to show
your sign?'

'Oh, it was humiliating at first. People would stare and make comments. Once someone tossed a piece of half-eaten bread and made a gesture that certainly didn't make me feel welcome. But then it became humbling to realize that God was using me to touch lives and change people's concepts of other folks like me.'

My concept was changing, too. We finished our dessert and gathered his things. Just outside the door, he paused He turned to me and said, 'Come Ye blessed of my Father and inherit the kingdom I've prepared for you. For when I was hungry you gave me food, when I was thirsty you gave me drink, a stranger and you took me in.'

I felt as if we were on holy ground. 'Could you use another Bible?' I
asked.

He said he preferred a certain translation. It traveled well and was not
too heavy. It was also his personal favorite.. 'I've read through it 14
times,' he said.

'I'm not sure we've got one of those, but let's stop by our church and
see' I was able to find my new friend a Bible that would do well, and he
seemed very grateful.

'Where are you headed from here?' I asked. 'Well, I found this little map on the back of this amusement park coupon.'

'Are you hoping to hire on there for awhile?'

'No, I just figure I should go there. I figure someone under that star
right there needs a Bible, so that's where I'm going next.'


He smiled, and the warmth of his spirit radiated the sincerity of his
mission. I drove him back to the town-square where we'd met two hours
earlier, and as we drove, it started raining. We parked and unloaded his
things.


'Would you sign my autograph book?' he asked. 'I like to keep messages from folks I meet.'

I wrote in his little book that his commitment to his calling had
touched my life. I encouraged him to stay strong. And I left him with a
verse of scripture from Jeremiah, 'I know the plans I have for you, declared the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you; Plans to give you a future and a hope.'

'Thanks, man,' he said. 'I know we just met and we're really just
strangers, but I love you.'

'I know,' I said, 'I love you, too.' 'The Lord is good!'


'Yes, He is. How long has it been since someone hugged you?' I asked.

A long time,' he replied

And so on the busy street corner in the drizzling rain, my new friend and I embraced, and I felt deep inside that I had been changed.. He put his things on his back, smiled his winning smile and said, 'See you in the New Jerusalem.'

'I'll be there!' was my reply.

He began his journey again. He headed away with his sign dangling from his bedroll and pack of Bibles. He stopped, turned and said, 'When you see something that makes you think of me, will you pray for me?'

'You bet,' I shouted back, 'God bless.'

'God bless.' And that was the last I saw of him.

Late that evening as I left my office, the wind blew strong. The cold
front had settled hard upon the town. I bundled up and hurried to my car. As I sat back and reached for the emergency brake, I saw them.... a pair of well-worn brown work gloves neatly laid over the length of the handle. I picked them up and thought of my friend and wondered if his hands would stay warm that night without them.

Then I remembered his words: 'If you see something that makes you think of me, will you pray for me?'

Today his gloves lie on my desk in my office. They help me to see the
world and its people in a new way, and they help me remember those two hours with my unique friend and to pray for his ministry. 'See you in the New Jerusalem,' he said. Yes, Daniel, I know I will...

'I shall pass this way but once. Therefore, any good that I can do or any kindness that I can show, let me do it now, for I shall not pass this way again.'

上帝的恩典够我用。。。

Back AGAIN to PJ....

Ok.... I was away for few days to Penang... Just came back today... Recovered I guess.... or I hope... Looking forward for the coming Friday to have some rest, or just to hang out with friends, or re-decorate my room.... Just whatever that will make me happy... =)

I... Fell... Sick....

I fell SICK!!! Honestly, I may have been wishing and hoping to fall sick but truly I did not really mean so... Haha... But somehow, my wish came true... This one fine morning, I started to feel headache and not so well. I almost scolded those who came to "kacau" me... Until lunch hour, my lovely colleague dragged me out to see doctor and insisted that I should stay home and rest since we need to travel again on Sunday. I think she is right. Took MC for one and a half day. It was like something seldom or almost never happened in my life. Not to mean that I am strong and healthy, just that my sickness never got so serious that I need to rest so much. Wanted to go work on the second day, but my weak body didn't allow me to. But today I had to drag myself out of my bed to attend a training which lasted until 4.00p.m. I took my medicine after the breakfast and I eventually fell asleep in class.... Opss.... Thank God that the tutor/facilitator did not ask me to come back again...
I should be sleeping now.... especially when I started to feel that my throat is getting worse again....

PS: To my friend, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!" You know who you are...

~Holidays~

Back in hometown for the holidays... I was quite busy the past week... Didn't really get enough rest... Back to hometown doesn't mean resting... Might be more tiring though but it's good to be at home....
Gonna attend a colleague's wedding in Perlis on Monday... It was so long since the last time I was in Perlis with a bunch of good friends doing some crazy stuff.... Now come to think of it, it was so many years ago... Now that everyone is everywhere.... But even if working in the same state also won't be able to meet up much.... Should really catch up with them sometimes.... To my surprise when I saw Hang that day in my company.... Haha.... The day before we were just chatting on MSN that we should have lunch together some time since he will be coming to that area quite often.... Then the next day there he was in my company... Haha... Somehow, it's just good to see old friends around...
This trip was quite rush somehow.... Gonna leave tomorrow.... But looking forward to the next holidays - CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Random

Went to watch "The Time Traveler's Wife" with my lovely colleague, Danielle. Quite touching and I believe it was a right choice to watch it with girl.... One part that I still remember clearly was when the girl asked the time traveler how does he feel when he leaves because he always has t be the one who leaves. She always watched him leave.... I wonder also, how does it feel to be the one who leaves all the time?? Because I have not been the one who leaves most of the time....

Updates.. FINALLY!!!

For those who are following my updates, sorry people!!! Sorry for being MIA for so so long... I even almost forgot my blog's address... Haha....
I am now working in Petaling Jaya as a project sales engineer in an air-conditioner company. Nothing much to talk about the job. Just normal like everyone else I supposed.
Besides, Aaron, Sze-Lyn, Ann Nee, Jentol, Jason and Nik Siong are also working in KL. We all do meet up occasionally to catch up with each other. But sometimes it's hard to get everyone, so usually Aaron, Sze-Lyn and I met up more often.
I am now attending my bro's church and joining his CG as well. I am really glad to know a lot of new friends from the church. Today, they had one jamming session in the church. I went since my bro was there. Though I did feel a bit out of place because I do not know much about music instruments so some terms are really strange to me. For the singing part, haha, I am not good in singing parts or harmony. Besides, I don't really know the songs they are singing as well. However, I did enjoy myself there. What I can say is they are really into music and some are really pro.... Hope they will have another jamming session soon...
A lot of things have happened these few months. Too hard to list out one by one. No matter what it is, it's part of life.
Usually got go out with friends during the weekend but somehow this week is kinda tired. So rather to stay in to have some rest. I guess that's all for now.... =)
Take care everyone....

Interview was ok. My first time interviewed in Mandarin. I was so used to be interviewed in English. Suddenly all the Chinese words I have learnt for 24 years just cannot come out sometimes that I need to complete my sentence with some English words. Haha... I was there one hour earlier. Thought I maybe can start interview earlier but the guy before me was interviewed for about one hour. Overall was ok. Just need to wait for the reply within 10 days.

Met up with Tow Lian and Chee Han for supper. It was fun catching up with friends. But I was quite tired. I have not yet be recharged enough after the travel. Gonna go out later with Tow Lian and then not sure what will happen after that. =)

Surprisingly, Yan Wai and SL also in KL now... But do not get to meet up with them due to lack of time, lack of transport... Haha....

In KL, again...

Here I am in KL for an interview. Feeling kinda lost... Not just because of the place that I am not familiar of. My career path is still something very vague for me... Not that I do not know what I want, but how to get there is what I am unsure of... But do I know exactly what I want? Is what I want for myself is what He wants for me also?? For now, I think I shall start getting ready for my interview later.

We SWEPT!!!

I am not someone with good memory. So I better do this fast before I forget... =) But sorry that I have not taken the photos from Hooi Keng.

Where do I start? Few weeks before SWEEP, I did think of quitting it.. Reason being.. I wasn't quite sure... Haha.. But somehow, a series of things happened and I cannot wait to go SWEEP. Besides, I have one interview scheduled few days before SWEEP. So even if I am not going to SWEEP also I will need to go KL. I take it as God's plan to unable me from escaping... Haha...

On the first day of SWEEP, the opening gave us a really good introduction and preparation of how SWEEP is going to be like. Thanks Esmond and Adrene for their efforts! Each station and each thing we did has its own meaning. Though the things may not be the same for next SWEEP, but tak seronok also for those who have not gone and planning to go to know everything right? Haha....

We started off the first full day with a big challenge. We were being disabled, sent out to get certain materials and back to HQ to accomplish another tough mission. In the process, we have learnt a lot. For me, the most important thing is never to underestimate the abilities of others especially the less fortunate ones. "Not to just look at their disabilities but look at their capabilities... " quoted from one of the SWEEPers... Haha... During the process, I tended to assume that they cannot do certain things so I took the initiative to help. But when it happened to me, then only I know the feelings weren't so good to be helped all the time. Instead of having sympathy towards them, why not have empathy towards them? =) After few long hours, we managed to accomplish our mission and the fruits of our hard works were so good... *peace*

We had talks every night by different heroes in social works, sharing with us their experiences, stories, feelings, thoughts, dreams and hopes.... Sometimes we were very inspired after the talk, sometimes felt too little we can contribute, sometimes felt angry & sad towards the society, sometimes filled with lots of questions like "WHY?"... I feel that from each of the talks I was given a small part of the whole picture of social works. At least now that I can see a bigger picture of social works and it is not something as easy as I thought it will be. One of the talks about Recognising Our World by Sister Soo Choo was one the talks that hit me really hard to realize that there's another "world" within this happy world that we live in and how ignorant I am towards what's going on around us... Other talks have different massage that touched my heart but I cannot list all out... Find me if you want to know more. =)

For attachments, I went to two different places for the two weeks. On the first week, I went to MAB, Malaysian Association for the Blind together with Esmond, Yew Kong, Huan Ching, Clara, Hannah and Sze-Lyn. MAB is not a home but a service centre where the blinds will go and learn up some skills for them to fit in to the "normal" world. Click here for more info about MAB. Note that I used "normal" rather than normal because being with them, I do not think that I am normal or better because there are a lot of things that I need to learn from them. On the first day, we met the elderly blind who come to MAB once a week to have time together simply for some fellowship or games like dominos. They taught us to play dominos. Trust me, they can play a lot more faster than us even though they just depend on their sense of touch and hearing. Some of us tried playing without using our eyes, and we just cannot remember what tiles do we have and took a long time to just figure out what tiles we have by touching. They told us a lot of inspiring and touching stories. The little time that we managed to spend with them really touched me. The way they support, help and take care of each other. I have seen a lot of positiveness in them that sometimes we cannot even find it in the so-called "normal" people. They may have lost their sight but they managed to see the world by their hearts. The next two days were spent with kids. Some of them are blind and some have low vision. Besides, several of them actually have multiple disablilities. It would definitely be easier to teach them if they are just blind, but for cases where the kids are blind yet have other learning disabilities, it would surely make the teaching process harder. I was amazed at the patience of the teachers, especially Kak Rosnah. Those kids were really adorable and they were just as cute as the other kids. Now I kinda miss Haris who somehow got quite attached to him on the last day. He followed me wherever I go but forgot me when his mum came. =) He was naughty but cute. He can play one same toy over and over again, but that might be his favorite one la. Besides, we learnt braille, but just grade 1. We tried typing a letter using braille for the elderly blind to thank them for their hospitality. One short letter with not more than 50 words actually took us about 45 minutes to type it. =P We were really happy that Mr. Taslim can actually understand what we typed because we just simply put in the punctuation marks since we have not learnt yet. The second week, I went to United Voice (UV) with another bunch of people. UV is a self-advocacy society of people with learning disabilities. For more info about UV, click here. I was truly blessed being there too. Even though I might not help much but I have learnt so much from everyone. Too often we treat them differently because of their disabilities, but all they want is to live a simple life like we all do. Each of them has something different in them that we will always remember about even when we have come back to the reality. I enjoyed making bookmarks, cooking konnyaku jelly, making Omochi, having grooming session, chatting and having fun with them. So many friends I have made there, hope that I will meet them again. =)

For the understanding series, one word "wow!"A lot of surprises. Like we always say, expect the unexpected... We have Understanding Disabled, Poverty, Abused, Refugees and Vulnerable Communities. For some, I have heard too many about them but finally met in person. For some other, I knew too little about them that the truth actually gave me a shock of my life. =) Now that I have seen, heard and knew, what else can I do??? I believe this is the question that many of us brought back with us after SWEEP. Let's pray that these things that we experienced will not fade away so that we will not forget to pray for them and do something for them.

What else do I miss about SWEEP?? Actually there were a lot more interesting experiences because besides meeting up people with different conditions, we also came to know each other better through these two weeks. I shall post about them in another post because I need to sleep earlier tonight as I need to drive my bro and mum to Penang tomorrow early morning. Please pray for safe journey yea... =) I know those I have written still kinda brief... But no fun if I tell everything here also right? Night, people...

Back..

Finally back from SWEEP after two weeks... Just in case for those who do not know what SWEEP stands for, SWEEP = Social Works Exposure and Embracement Progam. I had really really great experiences and I am very glad that I was there. Together with me were 11 other lovely, cool and fun Sweepers of year 2009 and 6 great FES staff. We have been to different places, met different people, heard different stories and seen different things. Like most of us said, SWEEP has changed our perspectives towards the world around us though it does messed up some of our lives. =) A lot more to share but shall post it later when I get the photos from HK. Stay tune...

To all the Sweepers,
Really miss you all man~~ Haha... Let's keep in touch k?

To my roommates during SWEEP,
Though we cannot share every night before sleep anymore, let's still keep in touch through mails or FB k? Update us frequently yea....

Tired

So here I am at my bro's place.... Online late at night, or "early" in the morning. Reached Pudu about 6a.m. Bro was already there waiting. The ride was OK. It was kinda cool at first. The jacket I brought was not the thickest I have because that one is too "space-consuming". Thank God we changed bus due to some problems to the first bus. So that bus was kinda warm since it just started. Had quite a good sleep I consider.... =)

Then rested awhile before the interview... I was quite tired so just wished it passed faster.... Haha... But overall was ok. Might need to wait for second interview if I am short-listed.=)

Nothing much today. Stay at my bro's house for most of the time. Had bad headache though so can't go anywhere. Need to rest now... Nitez, people...

KL... Here I come....

Leaving for KL soon..... Very soon... With HK..... For my another interview and SWEEP... Pray for us.... And pray for my interview... Thanks... Take care everyone.. Till I online again... Hopefully is tomorrow... Haha....

For YOU...

Saja...

Went for a haircut today because mum has been complaining about my too-long hair...But still, I only allowed her to cut one inch... haha.... After cutting, she blew my hair straight... Then I realized it was kinda long ago when I last seen in not curly hair. The hair style before curly was not really straight actually... Haha... Then I have second thought of perming my hair curly again... So now I open to the floor for suggestion... Straight? Curly? I can't really straighten my hair because my hair volume is pathetically little for strengthening... But I am kinda boring with curly hair either... What should I do le...??

Curly?? Straight??

Boop-pop-boop-pop...

Kinda nervous for the interview in Kulim tomorrow. I do not know why. I was not that nervous during my first interview in Carsem also... I am not sure whether I have prepared enough... Just leave everything into God's hand. He has planned the way for me and I believe He will be there to guide me through. Pray for me, folks. Will update the "process" of my interview tomorrow maybe...

I am so happy~~

*Ta-da...*

Closer look....

Even closer look.... Saliva coming out yet??

This was what I cooked today... Crabs + prawns... Supposedly to be just crabs but mum left out one prawn that she forgot to keep together with these rest of the prawns in the refrigerator so we decided to cook the ONE prawn with my favorite crabs. Then she asked me to add a few more since she cannot take crabs.
This was my second time cooking this dish. The first time was.... not really bad la... Just that it was too dry. The best part about this dish is the gravy. The last time was too dry because my elder bro and I were arguing how much water to add and how to cook the dish.... Besides, I was not the one preparing the chili paste which is quite an important part but my younger bro did. So he was kinda mad when we turned the dish to a quite failure. Haha...
Today, I did everything by myself. Except choosing the crabs and paying... Haha... I cut the crabs MYSELF, I pound the chili paste by MYSELF, I cooked them by MYSELF.... and it turned out to be successful... It gave me a strong sense of accomplishment... I am so happy... Haha.... I am not a good cook... Seldom cook actually although I kinda like cooking... The only dish that I cooked the most should be spaghetti where the sauce is actually available in supermarket. =P
I give this dish 85% because I think it is not salty enough... Haha... Tak tau pai sei... But mum said it tasted just nice, it's good enough that way, shouldn't be too salty. And mum said, it looked like the way grandma liked to cook... Because she won't pound the chili and other ingredients until too fine as you can still see the chili pieces in the photos... =) But the truth is... I was lazy and got no strength dy.. Haha....

*PS: S, if you are concerned that the prawns might be too cooked since I am a noob cook... Trust me, they are not!! Just nice and juicy... Bluek!

Tried learning some simple cooking these days just in case I need to work some where else, not near to home so that I won't be found dead of starving or too much ajinomoto... Haha... I also fried wantan today. Haha... To be honest, I never tried frying something all by my own before, except frying eggs. Because everytime when I did, the pro will come and take over half way, maybe they don't trust my skill. Haha...

Nice song~~

No Boundaries by Kris Allen

Prefer this version than the one sang by Adam Lambert although his version is not bad too... =)

最近的心情总是起起伏伏，以为自己快痊愈了，却突然发现是变严重了。
还以为自己真的那么坚强，还以为自己很快会雨过天晴，还以为自己很快会恢复正常。。。
我会的，一定会的。。。

Random..

We always said, brave and courageous are those who are willing and ready to step into the unknown, to take the unseen challenges.... But I think those who have already known the challenges and knowing how hard it is to take them but still willing to take them are braver and more courageous. Like Jesus, He knew that He is going to die on the cross, a brutal way but He did it still... Though that was by grace that He has done that for us, but we can never image how much courage and strength He needed to take the step while He was just a human like us... What you think?

Healthy day.....

Went swimming alone this morning... Wanted to ask my younger brother along but he had plan. He went to Penang this early morning. But I had the thought of going swimming since yesterday night and was quite excited about it. So I decided to still go after accompanying mum for some marketing. It was about quarter past ten when I leave home. When I reached that place, opss... I forgot to bring my goggles... I can't swim without goggles.. Hehe... So I drove back home to take it... Went back there again and it was about 10.45a.m. then. Before I left home, I was quite hesitated because it was getting hot. But I don't care... I want to swim... Haha... So I went again. The fella told me that the morning session ends at 11.30a.m. Huh... I didn't know got sessions now... But since I was already there with my swimsuit ready, just swim la. Swam for about half an hour only. But I think it was an improvement for me because I took less rest. Haha... Left at 11.30a.m. Felt so good after swimming. Hopefully I will still have the semangat to swim more to build up my stamina for the next few weeks. =) Just half an hour also, I can clearly see that my body parts that were not covered became darker... But I believe it will recover soon GUA.... =)
After coming back from swimming, I made myself some smoothie... With apples, tomatoes and carrot... Taste quite good.... It's good for skin complexion... I do not know how true it is because I have just started trying. Maybe next time I should add some milk or yogurt... =)

24th Birthday...

Had my most unforgettable birthday ever in my life... And I won't explain why and how... Sorry.... =) Thanks for all the wishes... Thanks for friends who stood beside me all these while... You know who you are... Thank God for whatever I have and I do not have...

Viva.. DONE!!!

Viva is finally over!! Thanks to the panels who were quite good to me. Although I did not manage to answer all the questions they asked, but overall I was not that badly injured~~ Haha... Was I injured?? Hm... I am just glad that it is done... Now just waiting to get my final draft so that I can go back tomorrow with a peaceful heart... Wanted so much to write more... But I am too tired to do so... Need some sleep now...

New Habit??

Tomorrow will be my very last paper!!!! And I have no mood to study still... So I made a cup of milk... For fun... Just realized that I did not touch the milk powder for very long after I have my spirulina oatmeal, nescafe and cadbury hot chocolate.... I was not a "milk" person... I do not like to drink milk since young... I did not remember how young when I actually stop drinking milk and started to drink milo instead. Sometimes I really feel kinda scared when I see advertisements of milk powder talking about osteoporosis for women... Though I know it's late to start at my age... But at least trying makes me feel better... Will try to keep with one cup of milk everyday... I will try.. =) I used to vomit when I drink milk... I wonder why... Haha...

Relax... Lazy... Whatever...

I have finally passed up my final draft last Friday... Phew... Finally~~~ At least I can put it at the back of my mind for awhile... At least for another week before I need to start preparing my Viva slides and mock viva with my beloved supervisor.. =)
Feel like I have lots to update... But dunno where to start....
Last week... I was busy doing corrections for my final drafts.... One or two nights without sleep at all, then all the printings which waste stack of paper and don't know how much ink... Haih~~~ But one thing that kept me excited was the condo stay for the final year gang on Thursday night. I was supposed to submit my final draft latest by Friday 4.00p.m. So I mati-mati want to rush and finish my thesis and pass up on Thursday before going for the condo stay but my supervisor was too busy and the whole process sort of tergendala until Thursday morning. So I went late that day to Penang. Once I reached, we started preparing for our dinner. We had spaghetti, salad, mushroom soup and fruit punch! It was really fun preparing the food together and arguing how the food should be cooked. Haha... And not to mention how noob J.Ling was... Haha.... Oppsss..... We thought we will need supper but the food was more than sufficient and everyone was so full before we finished all the food. After dinner, we started playing Taboo.. One of my favorite games... It was really funny because sometimes we describe things in a weird way, and the weirdest thing is got people guess it correctly... Then we played pictionary where everyone played. Again, it is a game to test our creativity.... =) FYI, my team won for both games!!!!! Yea...
At first we said we should not play mahjong for this condo stay because it involves less people. But somehow the temptation was too great, we just started our mahjong session and another group played cards. I did not sleep the night before, so I fell asleep while waiting for the rest to start mafia.. So I was the second one to sleep while the rest were still playing mahjong. The next morning I had to go back campus earlier to settle my thesis. After I submitted the thesis, I just played games and watched movies for the rest of the day until they came back from Penang and I went ping pong with Simon before going to church for Good Friday service. They showed a documentary and I was aslept almost 70% throughtout the show. Sorry~~~
We had practice for Sunday Service on Saturday afternoon. It was fun... It was supposed to be the "last gig" for us the final year gang, like Yan Wai told me earlier. Too bad he didn't join us because he was not feeling well. I really had fun during the practice....
Sunday was Easter... I was part of the worship team then I was also the interpreter for the speaker that day. I guess I have really not been using my Mandarin much that I just cannot think of some Chinese terms on the spot. All that came into my mind was another English term. -_-||| But thank God for it was better than the last time. At least I feel it was... Haha....
Today... I was in library for half day... Slept for one hour in the library... Hehe... as usual... Nothing much and I came back earlier.... No mood to study... Was playing game the whole night... Haih~~~ Is this what final year student do?? Feel kinda guilty actually because my roommate was studying... even though I think she is studying SAMBIL watching movie... So I think I should study a little before sleeping to make myself feel better.. *peace* =P

Farewell... Thanks!!!

I think I do owe a proper farewell speech... Forgive me that I was blank and tired during the farewell, so my sharing was kinda... confusing and unorganized... =) So, here I post what I really wanted to say...
CF has been a place that allowed me to discover more about myself, helped me grow and learned new things. Like I said, before I came to campus I was backslided for years. But a conference I attended before I came to campus lighted up my heart to go church and CF again. I was excited and looking forward for Uni life because of that.... I believe it was God in working too. I was kinda lost during the first two weeks because I was not paying attention during orientation when they said where to wait to go church. I have no one to ask. One of the seniors in CF, who is also my sister's friend, said he will call me and bring me to church and CF did not call me. (FYI, it was Felix.. Haha) But I met someone who brought me to church. Thank God!
A lot of seniors has brought great impact to me. When I just came, I felt inferior all the time because there are a lot of things that I do not know although I have accepted Christ for years. But they always encouraged me to do things that I thought they are beyond my ability. Of course, in the process I may fall but the experiences made me grow... I am thankful for those seniors and I missed them so much... Hopefully you all will miss me too someday.... Haha...
Serving in CF is blessing to me. I once came across one article which briefly said that everyone is called to serve. You might not know which ministery you belong to, but that should not be a reason for you not to serve. We will know what God has planned for us as we continue serving Him. I find this very true because I once wanted so badly to be worship leader... Haha.. When I was younger la.... Youth time. But I came here and sometimes I thought I am not suitable to be one. So I tried something else - Children ministery in church. I fit in quite well, maybe because I am one of them also?? haha... I did not just give uo worship leading though. The process has taught me to open up for other possilbilities and also helped me to be a better worship leader as well. I just hope that the generations to come will challenge themselves to do more for God. Don't think that you cannot because some of us have been through that stage too and we have experienced what our Great God can do.
So much more to say... Haha... I am really encouraged to see so many juniors stood up and started to serve in CF. You guys have really touched my heart a lot. And I believe that you guys will surely do better than we did. I am going to miss you all a lot. Thanks for taking me as your friend and bullying me like a friend instead of a senior. Keep up your good works and SHINE for Him in this campus!
You guys that are same batch or graduating tgt with me.... I love you guys... Working together with you guys, growing together with you guys, discussing about ABDC's headspin, passing video clips and movies and series around, going makan beramai-ramai, buat bising, making fun of eac other... All those time were fun.... I will never forget all the crazy things we have done together, all the ups and downs we have been through... Just hope that we will keep in touch after graduation and hope that we will be friends for life.... Like the song said " a lifetime's not too long to live as friends... " I am really going to miss you guys very much... Yea.. we still have one "Greatest Hits" to do... Let's rock it!!! Haha~~~~ Hope you guys will continue to keep the faith you have shown in CF for these four years. Thanks for all the memories we had together....
I really wanted to say more... Cuz no time limit here.... No one is going to laugh even if I cry... But I need to do lab tmr... hahaha.... That's why I said I still can't really feel the farewell when my brain is stuck with FYP... But Thanks for the farewell... I like the souvenir a lot.. and I know it is not Rm2.50. I told Simon not to be sad... Haha....
Though we are parted... but someday we will all meet again... in the Promised Land..... =)
Love you all~~~

Sometimes I look at myself I feel that I am such a stupid person...
I know the truth... But I chose to ignore it and thought that miracle would happen if I try hard enough...
Silly is the only word I can think of....

I want proper sleep.. No nightmares or bad dreams...

Hm~~~ Just thought that I should update my blog but too many things in my head and I just do not know how and where to start. Last week was a very tension week for me because I was so stressed with my FYP and thesis until I barely slept well. I always set my alarm clock to wake me up early in the morning but I ended up waking up later than I wanted as well. One day I really did something very funny in my attempt to wake up early. I was not quite sure which day was it, might be thursday... The night before I was super duper tension with my thesis (all of a sudden), so I stayed up quite late until I really cannot stand. So I thought maybe I should sleep and wake up earlier instead. So I set my alarm clock to wake me up at 5.00A.M. When it rang, I wanted to reset to maybe 15 minutes later but semiconsciously I did something else without knowing. I remembered Tow Lian called me back to ask me why I call her. Opss.... Then I went to school that morning at 8.00A.m. to wait for my turn to do SEM test. While I was waiting, I received a sms from Aaron which said "Wow so early, take care sis." I wondered for awhile, why he sent me a sms like this? How he knows I woke up early? So I messaged back to ask him. He said that I smsed him at 5.00A.M. and said "GAMBATE." What??? I really cannot remember what I have done. Too bad I deleted all my sent messages while I was clearing the unwated messages... So now I know I can sleep-smsing... Hahaha.... Still normal if I just send a blank sms right? Hahaha.. I wonder did I ever call someone while I was sleeping and tell my secrets?? Hm...
I guess the rest of the week revolved a lot around my FYP and thesis... Haih... FYP syndrom... And these few days, my neck and shoulders were really aching so badly until massage also cannot help to sooth it. My massage sifu's skill also cannot make them better.... I really do not know what's the cause to it...
Had really great dinner just now with the outgoing committee. I really enjoyed the fellowship a lot. One thing that touched me the most was the gift Joshua Prakash gave me. A bar of chocolate and a bookmark. The one with the design that I like. He remembered what I said.. So touched... The message he wrote on it really touched me too... Just something to clarify, I get tired very easily one wo... Where got dunno what's the meaning of tired... Hahahaha... "Thanks Joshua, really glad to have you in my CG..."
Then something I must mention is the salted chicken bought from Ipoh.... "Thanks bro..." It has been so long since the last time I had. So nice~~~
One last thing... I really have to admit that I am old... Haha... Because two hours with the kids today at Sunday School really made me real exhausted.... For the first time, I wish the service ends earlier... Hahaha.... But still, I love kids.... =)
Good night again~~~

What is wrong??

For the first time, it did not work...
For the first time, I felt like this...
For the first time, I think I am going to explode...
For the first time, nothing calms me down...
For the first time, I hope it ends soon...

Just a story to share...

The Pastor and his son

A good reminder of God's Love.

Every Sunday afternoon, after the morning service at the church, the Pastor and his eleven year old son would go out into their town and hand out Gospel Tracts.

This particular Sunday
afternoon, as it came time for the Pastor and his son to go to the streets with their tracts, it was very cold outside, as well as pouring down rain. The
boy bundled up in his warmest and driest clothes and said, 'OK, dad, I'm ready.'

His Pastor dad asked, 'Ready for what?'

'Dad, it's time we gather our tracts together and go out.' Dad responds, 'Son, it's very cold outside and it's pouring down rain.'

The boy gives his dad a surprised look, asking, 'But Dad, aren't people still going
to Hell, even though it's raining?'

Dad answers, 'Son, I am not going out in this weather.' Despondently, the boy asks, 'Dad, can I go? Please?'

His father hesitated for a moment then said, 'Son, you can go. Here are the tracts, be careful son.'

'Thanks Dad!'

And with that, he was off and out into the rain. his eleven year old boy walked the streets of the town going door to door and handing everybody he met in the street a Gospel Tract.

After two hours of walking in the rain, he was soaking, bone-chilled wet and down to his VERY LAST TRACT. He stopped on a corner and looked for someone to hand a tract to, but the streets were totally deserted.

Then he turned toward the first home he saw and started up the sidewalk to the front door and rang the door bell. He rang the bell, but nobody answered. He rang it again and again, but still no one answered. He waited but still no answer.

Finally, this eleven year old trooper turned to leave, but something stopped him. Again, he turned to the door and rang the bell and knocked loudly on the door with his fist. He waited, something holding him there on the front porch! He rang again and this time the door slowly opened. Standing in the doorway was a very sad-looking elderly lady. She softly asked, 'What can I do for you, son?' With radiant eyes and a smile that lit up her world, this little boy said, 'Ma'am, I'm sorry if I disturbed you, but I just want to tell you that *JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU* and I came to give you my very last Gospel Tract which will tell you all about JESUS and His great LOVE.'

With that, he handed her his last tract and turned to leave. She called to him as he departed. 'Thank you, son! And God Bless You!'

Well, the following Sunday morning in church Pastor Dad was in the pulpit. As the service began, he asked, 'Does anybody have any testimony or want to say anything?'

Slowly, in the back row of the church, an elderly lady stood to her feet. As she began to speak, a look of glorious radiance came from her face, 'No one in this church knows me. I've never been here before. You see, before last Sunday I was not a Christian. My husband passed on some time ago, leaving me totally alone in this world. Last Sunday, being a particularly cold and rainy day, it was even more so in my heart that I came to the end of the line where I no longer had any hope or will to live.

So I took a rope and a chair and ascended the stairway into the attic of my home. I fastened the rope securely to a rafter in the roof, then stood on the chair and fastened the other end of the rope around my neck. Standing on that chair, so lonely and brokenhearted I was about to leap off, when suddenly the loud ringing of my doorbell downstairs startled me. I thought, 'I'll wait a minute, and whoever it is will go away.' I waited and waited, but the ringing doorbell seemed to get louder and
more insistent, and then the person ringing also started knocking loudly. I thought to myself again, 'Who on earth could this be? Nobody ever rings my bell or comes to see me.' I loosened the rope from my neck and started for the front door, all the while the bell rang louder and louder.

When I opened the door and looked I could hardly believe my eyes, for there on my front porch was the most radiant and angelic little boy I had ever seen in my life. His SMILE, oh, I could never describe it to you! The words that came from his mouth caused my heart that had long been dead, TO LEAP TO LIFE as he exclaimed with a cherub-like voice, 'Ma'am, I just came to tell you that JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU.' Then he gave me this Gospel Tract that I now hold in my hand.

As the little angel disappeared back out into the cold and rain, I closed my door and read slowly every word of this Gospel Tract. Then I went up to
my attic to get my rope and chair. I wouldn't be needing them any more.

You see---I am now a Happy Child of the KING. Since the address of your church was on the back of this Gospel Tract, I have come here to personally say THANK YOU to God's little angel who came just
in the nick of time and by so doing, spared my soul from an eternity in hell.'

There was not a dry eye in the church. And as shouts of praise and honor to THE KING resounded off the very rafters of the building, Pastor Dad descended from the pulpit to the front pew where the little angel was seated.

He took his son in his arms and sobbed uncontrollably. Probably no church has had a more glorious moment, and probably this universe has never seen a Papa that was more filled with love & honor for his son.... Except for One.

Our Father also allowed His Son to go out into a cold and dark world. He received His Son back with joy unspeakable, and as all of heaven shouted praises and honor to The King, the Father sat His beloved Son on a throne far above all principality and power and every name that is named.

Love is....

A few scriptures from 1 Corinthians 13: 1 ~ 8a (The Message).

If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ectasy, but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate.

It I speak of God's Word with power, revealing all His mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain 'Jump', and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing.

If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere.

So, no matter what I do, I am bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut.
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first",
Doesn't fly of the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of the truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

Love never dies.

Loving others is never an easy task and it is a life-long lesson. But God wants us to love others like we love ourselves, like how He has loved us and we have the best model to look up to which is Jesus Christ!!! =)

New day awaits~~

Here I am sitting in front of the computer after a LONG day... Just came back from CF and I know I am supposed to sleep NOW because I need to be at school tomorrow morning, 8.00A.M.. But another voice also told me that I can't sleep right away after my supper. In order to make myself feel better, I do something -- blogging.
Went to school around 9 o'clock today. Thank GOD that no one was there in the petrology lab. I was thankful because yesterday it was crowded. All machines were occupied. Today, I can slowly choose which machine to use. Prepared few more samples today to be annealed tomorrow. Talking about annealing, I must mention about the furnace... Haha... It started long time ago that I found out I need to use the furnace together with Argon-hydrogen gas. Then I was told that the new tank of gas has not arrived yet. So I waited. Then someone suggested me to use the vacuum furnace. So I got a slot for the vacuum furnace. That morning when I finally got to use the furnace due to some unexpected incidents happened that delayed the use of furnace, I was then told that the furnace was spoilt. The technician asked me to wait for few days. But it was not a very good idea. I was told to just use the furnace together with argon gas although it was expected that the results were DEFINITELY not good. What other choices do I have? NO! So after some discussions, negotiations and what-so-ever, I got a slot from a friend. For the next few weeks, I woke up early on the Monday morning just to go to school and get a slot for the coming week. BUT, then only I was told that the gas arrived and I should follow the initial plan. I managed to use the furnace and the gas for once, and then it was finished AGAIN in two weeks. Now, I need to use the vaccum furnace again which is now fully booked!!! Thank GOD for Shu Lee who managed to get a slot for tomorrow and allowing me to put in my samples together with hers. You have no idea how greatful I am... I just hope that it will not spoil AGAIN!!!
Also, I finally got my XRD results today. mostly of them were not that good but there were some really nice results as well. But still, I am still very happy about the results although I still need to continue with my lab works.
Came back to the room at 5, rested, played game then went to CF. We had a speaker today and a bunch of young, talented people. Great to have them here. But I was too tired to entertain them much. Still, I managed to chat with a few of them.
Left with Jason Ling because I was too sleepy and tired... Yes, sleepy and tired. But why am I still awake? Probably I am not... Haha... Good night people~~~

FYP stress~~~

I have not been very productive these two days, reason being I just passed up the chapter 2 of my thesis which has already haunted me for days. Besides, things I wanted to do have been delayed again and again. All I can do is just wait... And letting myself regenerate after the exhaustion of writing my chapter 2. Seriously, I have been dreaming about my supervisor scolding me because I haven't passed up my thesis and stuff... Tension~~~
Wanted to get my XRD results so that I can do the comparison and then continue with the next part of my experiment. Hopefully the last part... But the results are not out yet. It is already out of my schedule... Haih~~~~ Before I get my results, I have no reason to see my supervisor. But if I don't see her, she will assume that I am not doing anything... If I make myself to go see her now, I have nothing to tell or ask her... So you know what I know everytime I come to school? I check and see first whether her car is in the school. If she is not, I will really feel relieved... But of course, I will still do my stuff which I am supposed to... Now... I am blogging here at the school's computer lab, waiting for the time to pass, hoping that later I can get my XRD results already.... I really do not want to get scolded again lar~~~~~

Bad Experience of Blood Donation~~

As I said I shall elaborate more on why I think it was a bad experience~~~ This was my second time to donate blood... And I finally got the little red book. Haha.. Ok... It happened when we went to Taiping Central. I thought I want to try finding a dress for Bahan Night there. But the mall was quite small, so my search ended in about 15 minutes time. When Sze-Lyn and I were at the ground floor roaming around to wait for time to pass, she was told that some of them were donating blood at the first floor. I was very excited, so we decided to go and have a look. When I queued up, Lian, Ann Nee, Ming Chung and Derrick were already there. I was just 3 persons behind Derrick for registration. After all the procedures of filling up forms and checking blood pressure and all, all four of them got their place already. Ann Nee even almost done. Lian has been sitting there for quite some because they can't find her veins. I sat down and chatted with them. Before I realized, more and more people came and some even took up my turn. So I stood up and waited. But there were already two persons taken my turn. Thank God for the guy who saw me and gave me the place. Ming Chung and Derrick were done then even before I sat down... =( After sitting down, no one seems to bother about me.. I sat there for quite some time and no one attended to me... Tow Lian was finally done too... Left me alone.... =( Ming chung went to tell the nurse and finally someone came... She tried finding my veins on my left hand and she said cannot see. So I said right hand might be better.. So I changed place. Then she said my veins are too HALUS... The first time she poked, tak kena... So she pulled out the syringe and I had to wait some more before she try the second time... Argh... Already feeling very guilty to make so many people to wait for me... Some more Ann Nee was not feeling well after the blood donation.... After a LONG time(long time to me la), she came again to try the second time. She kept on saying cannot find my veins and I kept on saying also the first time it was very easy to find. Haha.... I did not know whether it was her problem or what that this time was painful. But she finally got it.... The "flow rate" of my blood was fast. It was done in quite a short time la.. And thanks to Derrick I donated slightly more than I was supposed to... The funny thing was Aaron and Lian were saying very fast but Derrick kept telling me that there was a long way to go, don't get deceived as he was the one looking at the weigh. Mana tau, he baca wrongly la... Hahaha.... Now my hand got two needle hole's scars. And Ann said it looked like I was bitten by vampire... Where got vampire bite here one?? Hahaha... I thank God that I do not have any bruises like some people always do after donating blood.... Will it stop me from donating the third time?? Hm... Don't think so... =)

Final Year Retreat ROCKS!!!!

I have been lost for quite awhile AGAIN... Have been very busy with CF concert and FYP after the Chinese Year... Too much to update but I have very little time now since this is 5.00a.m. in the morning and I need to sleep for two hours before I wake up and continue my works. Perhaps I just update the latest one first.. Since the memories are still FRESH... Hahaha....
This past weekend, we had our final year retreat at Maxwell Hill... Only 15 of us managed to make it for this retreat where 4 were the master students and FES worker. To those who can't make it, you guys really missed out a lot of fun ler.... =P
On the first night, we stayed at Derrick's grandma's house. It was quite a cozy place actually for me... Nothing much happened that night except four of us were so excited about playing mahjong... We purposely borrowed and brought a mahjong set... -_-|||
The next morning, we had breakfast and then bought stuff for the steamboat dinner. We reached Maxwell Hill later than the time we expected but still we decided to hike part of jungle trek. It was tiring because I seriously have not been excersizing after KK trip. But still we managed to reach the place in the estimated time. Then we took the jeep up to the place we stay. We stayed at... Hm.... I forgot what's the name. But it was a nice bungalow with lots of space for us to "entertain" ourselves with mahjong and rummy-o. Hahaha..... I guess I was at the mahjong table most of the time for the rest of the day when we were not eating, bathing or having session. Hahahha.... The steamboat dinner was quite nice. Thanks to Master Chef, Ah John! Thanks to Yew Kong and Aaron as well who washed the dish for us.... Hehehe.... Then more MAHJONG.... We had our session after one game... The session was about "Called to choose, called to community". It was quite an impactful session though. But to me, the interactions between all of us were more significant. Then more MAHJONG after the session... and you know what, I won with 十三幺. But some of them do not know what is 十三幺 since almost 80% of them just started to learn playing mahjong during this retreat.... Anyway, I won!!! To me, it was like something that only happens once in a life time.
The next day we had a short session before leaving the hill. we wanted to go Taman Tasik to continue the session but too bad it was raining. SO we went for lunch and we had banana leave rice... Hm.... no comment because I do not know how to comment. Ok lo~~ Hahaha.... After that back to Taman Tasik again, and it was raining again. Managed to take few group photos and had a more proper ending of the session. Then few of us decided to go Taiping Central while some went back. Nothing much there but the most unforgettable one was my bad experience of donating blood there. Should talk more about this experience in the next post since this is seriously time to sleep. Only one and a half hour left. Opss....


Proofs of my 十三幺... Hahaha....

Eventful Day!!!

I absolutely had an eventful and blessed day... This morning, I was the interpreter for the speaker, Bro. Mugan in church. I was kind of blur, I guess I should say really blur... Haha... When he tended to speak longer, I could only remember the first two lines and the later part. So this was the worst experience of all interpretation I have done. Kind of disappointed with myself. However, i have learnt a new line today : "The main thing is the main thing, the main thing..." I was supposed to translate that but seriously, I have no idea how to because I do not understand a bit. No one knows how to translate that. My guess was no one understood... =P Besides, I enjoyed the P&W with a really nice Hokkien song I just learnt and PBBC version of "How Great Is Our God". After the service, we used to go Tong Kee for lunch with the generous church members. But since today onwards, they have decided to have some home cooked food instead. We had really nice food today, especially the pork.

"Too bad Simon~~ You've missed it. =P"

Ok, then four of us (Aaron, Terence, Edmond and I) went to Jusco Bandar Perda for a little shopping... Had great time there too... We had Papa Roti and Secret Recipe for tea!!! It was really nice to eat Papa Roti while it was still a little hot. Then we had cakes!! My all time favorite -- Chocolate Indulgence... Yum yum.... After the tea, I went to buy the sunshade Simon and I spotted few days ago... Not for myself... Eventually I chose the one I like and he did not quite like at the time...I think he will now... Or he needs to... Because I have already bought it... Hehe...
Reached PB about 7 something and we decided to have some sports. So again the four of us plus Nicholas ( who came about one hour late, I guess ) went for tennis... The two hours were great!! Aaron and Terence were quite experienced player... The rest of us were quite noob... Quite new player and Edmond was first timer. I really had a lot of fun.... Then got back room, took bath, out for supper.. Dinner actually... or dinner + supper = dipper?? Hahaha.... There were only Aaron, Ming Chung and me... We had fun chatting about family and stuff.... Great time too...
And now here am I blogging because I should not sleep right away after coming back from supper. But I seriously need the sleep because I had to do lab tomorrow. Just hope everything is going to work smoothly... Good night then....