~~SiLLy gAl i aM~~

People close to me will know that I am truly a very silly girl.. Naive you can say.. I believe in fairy tales.. I believe in "happily ever after"...which nowadays most people don't.. Sooner or later, I started to realize that it is impossible to happen in real life.. I start to persuade myself not to believe in it... Perhaps in that case, it won't hurt that much...
But as I come to think, maybe it's just the way you define "fairy tales"... True that it hurts sometimes, so badly until I thought of giving up.. True that I cried many times like a little girl over small matters which no one seems to understand... But there is always something that make me stay.. And I believe each time, it is this "something" that draws us closer to each other....
I just want to tell you that time will prove this "something" is real for us and HE who puts us together will lead us through....
I treasured this Valentine's Day a lot because you really made me feel like a princess.. I believe the clumsiest princess you can ever see.. Haha... It still touches me every time I thought of it... The sweetest I ever had.. Thanks...

~~LoSt~~

Everytime when I come across the series "Lost", I find it strange because they have been "lost" for so many seasons (I'm not sure how many seasons altogether thet have now), yet they are still lost... But come to think seriously, am I not?
I have no idea where do I belong.... Perhaps there is a place, but just that sometimes I don't feel belonged there or I actually don't like to be belonged there... I am like those people lost in the isolated island, trying to escape, trying to get out from that place... But where else can I go?

I'm starting anew~~~

It really has been awhile since my last blog.. Somehow words just left me after the exam period... Haha... Many times I tried to write one but I would just stop half way and do not know how to continue. Many things happened over the holidays but it has already passed.... These things that happened have made me learned and seen a lot.. As I said in the prayer meeting, let the good things be carried with me towards the new year and let the things that brought me down be left behind...
A lot of resolutions have been made, just hope that I would be able to keep them and make them happen... =) New semester, new year, new beginning, I really hope I can make this year a different and better year!

tHaNk GoD!!!

Yeah!!!! One paper left!!! The happiest thing is Mechanical Metallurgy was over!!!!! Not as bad as I thought~~ I think I should say the lecturers are quite "merciful" to us because many question or all questions were actually almost the same (same exactly the same) as our exercises or examples. Of course, this doesn't mean I can score very high marks... In fact, I don't think I did well because there were parts of the notes which I thought not that important, so I skipped... Then it came out!! Who should I blame?? Myself!! Haha.. It's ok... It's already much better than my expectation already!! Who to thank?? Thank GOD!!! Not just this that I need to thank Him, but He has been blessings me in ways I never thought of... All I need is to PUT MY TRUST IN HIM... Though sometimes it's really hard... So I am still learning.. Hopefully I can learn fast~~~
One last paper to go which is Characterization of Materials... Can know it's a boring subject from it's name right?? What to do? This is what a Material Engineer has to do... So now I think I shall... watch a few episodes of Bleach.. Then study~~~ Haha...

~~KeEp HoLdiNg oN~~

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
[Keep Holding On lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

A song I have been listening quite a lot recently..Especially when I got tired of studying or revising.... Kinda nice song....

sTrEsSeD YeT ReLaXing...??

Blogging has become a "must-do" thing for me nowadays as long as I have a computer near me... It's just like writing diary which I used to do when I was still in secondary school.. I still write once in awhile in Uni but it doesn't happen daily. I just write when I am extremely free given I have the mood to write.. Comparing to other friends' blog, sometimes I do feel what I wrote were kinda childish or a little bit too simple... But like what dear said, this is my blog... I can write whatever I want, as long as I want... Since not many people might be reading my blog, this has really become a place for me to let my heart speaks... I used to blog through Friendster but I realized that many friends were reading.. Some were really worried when come to some depressing things I wrote.. It's kinda contradicting right? I want to post blog and yet hope that less people would read my blog... I can only say that I am another one who cares about what people would think and say about me... When many people are reading what I write, I start to scare that they will start commenting or judging me... Then whenever I write a blog, I will try to write things they would like to read or know.... I am not an author, so I am not good in doing so.. There were many times I remembered I wrote a blog and couldn't continue when it was half way through... Mainly just because I don't want people to worry about me or to let them see the other side of me which is weak and fragile... Inferior maybe??
But now I found myself another blogspot which I only give the address to a few friends.. A place for me to keep them updated with my recent life and condition... A place I can share a lot of things....
Had my Whitewares and Glasses paper this morning... Dear called me before exam to wish all the best which really surprised me and made my day~~ Haha.... It was about 8 something in the morning, usually he will be still in his bed until noon... He purposely woke up and called me, how can I not feel touched or sweet? Right??? Haha... Back to that paper.... Hm... Last time I used to write nice and complete sentences when answering questions which really takes a lot of time... Then I was scolded by friends so I tried writing in point form which really save lots of time man!! Not so rush for me this time... Thank God that my processor didn't disappoint me during the exam.. Haha... Now I leave it to God to do the rest.. (*whisper*But I will still pray hard that I can score an A for this... ) You know, I think I haven't scored A once for a 4 unit paper.... If I remember correctly...
Now, struggling to start studying Metallurgy.. Had spent my afternoon sleeping, redeeming my lack of sleep.. Spent my evening and night watching BLEACH with dear.... Now I understand why so many people like to watch Bleach~~ And, Ichigo is super cool!!! Hehe.... Should I be sleeping now?? I think I should~~~

Second In A Day~~~

I have not been very productive again and tomorrow will be my third paper already.... I thought this will be a bit better than the semiconductor but it proves me wrong... It's true that the notes are less but this subject need more memorizing other than memorizing!! It's all about memorizing... How sad~~~ Just want to give myself a break then continue to revise again after dinner... This paper covers 4 units which means doing badly for this paper will kill me!!! Erm... I mean my CGPA.... It is already bad enough, I really can't afford to make it worse anymore...

Something to highlight : Simon Chai finally managed to conquer the Gem Tower Defense gloriously!!!

The tower defense game looks very interesting where you have to choose different stones according to the recipe to build strong defense to kill the enemy... I think I will join him in playing this game if I am not having exam... It's kinda unfair you know... He only has one paper less than me but he is so much freer than me!!! He has almost one week time to study for a single paper except the first two papers which one of them was very easy actually.... Since he still has many days to study for his next paper, he has been playing DOTA and different type of tower defense after lunch beside me who was trying heard to study.... Haha.....
It's dinner time!!! Then I am back in study mode again~~~