Thursday, October 16, 2008
Ending SOOOoon.....
After this debate, I will only need to wait for the individual interview next week then I am done with LHP 456. Yes!!!!! Although it doesn't not have final or need to do assignments, but still getting lazier to go class, to talk and talk and talk.... But the one good thing is no need to sit for final la... This is why I chose this subject initially... Hehehe.....
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Family Camp '08 @ CCC
Had been a little bit too busy for me recently until I forgot I wanted to blog about the CF Family Camp I joined. As the final year students in CF said, this might be the last family camp that we can join unless we stay for master. Well, I joined the camp with only one intention which was to enjoy the camp and treasure the fellowship I can have with the others. I didn't really expect much from the camp itself, not that I didn't want to learn anything but probably I didn't think about it much since I was also quite busy before the camp.
This year, I think we had the most campers ever since I came to USM. I am proud to say that I have never missed any of the family camp. For each camp, I brought back different things with me. I was really glad that many first year students have decided to join the camp and also for those like Yee Ting and Siaw Ping who joined us as well. For me, I think it will take me a lot of courage to join a camp that most people have already known each other but I do not really know them at all. I hope they enjoyed the time as well.
This year we had our camp at the seaside - Christian Conventional Centre located at Batu Ferringgi. My first year, we went to a "kuala" - Kuala Gula; Second year, we went up to a hill - Maxwell Hill; Third year, we went to resort - Cinta Sayang Resort; This year, we went to the beach - Batu Ferringgi. This place was a very familiar place for me. I had a lot of memories at this place too. But that's not what I want to talk about for this post.
Hm... Where should I start?? Ok, when we were leaving from campus, it was raining very heavily but I can see that everyone was still very excited. It only took us about 45 minutes to 1 hour to reach our destination i guess because I only managed to sleep for a very short time. I really like the place a lot. It's really a place for camp and I always like staying in dorms for camps. Only for camps... Hahaha...
Initially I wanted to write down everything that I remember but it will be too lengthy. Perhaps I just want to share about few things that touched my heart or significant to me.
1. As I have said earlier that I only went with expectation to enjoy the camp rather than learning from the camp. Haha... Sounded like I did not trust the speaker... Of course that's not true. I knew very well that Annette is a very powerful speaker. But for those previous camps, I remembered I always pray that God will speak to me and let me see new things. For this camp, I have no preparation at all. But even the first session on the very first night has touched me so much. It was as though the voice was meant to speak directly to me personally. Those words pierced into my heart. After the first session, I was really eagerly expecting the coming sessions. I admit that I have said that I wanted to change in many many camps. But everytime it didn't really work. Though I know that I have not totally changed but I have experienced the changes in me that make me want to do better so that one day I can really fulfill what I have said to HIM, what I have promised HIM. After I came to uni, I didn't really know since when or why that I have lost the confidence I had in myself. So many times that I tried to avoid things and thought that someone greater than me would handle it better. But the day I left the camp, I brought along the seed which Annette gave to us and asked us to name it. I have named my seed - Mustard Seed (though it is a green bean) but there's a Sunday school song which talks about the Mustard seed has grown into big tree which gives shade to people, place for birds to build the nest. I truly hope that one day I can be a blessing to people around even there's so little that I can do and can bear the fruit of the spirit. Also, I was reminded of a song I have learnt from the National Conference. "Leaving my past behind, knowing much more I'll find, taking the step into the unknown..." After these in uni ( sound like many many years), things that happened really helped to know more about my own self like things I didn't let go after all the years, the struggles, the strongholds that I tried to deny. But they have all made me stronger.
2. I really managed to have very good fellowship with the juniors especially those who were in my group. For some of them, I really managed to spend time talking and chatting with them. For some, I sang songs together with them. For some, I played different different games with them. Even for some, I let them "bully" me for the sake of entertaining them since they did not have anything else better to do. Hah! Though they called me "senior" or "auntie" but they still played with me as if I am one of their age. Sometimes, I was kind of worry that I might miss out or neglect someone, making them feel abandoned. But these juniors really impressed me. They will find their activities and hang out with people not only from their batch. Cool~~ Because I know that sometimes I will tend to stick to people I have already known very well. I was really blessed by them.
3. This year, I finally managed to guess who my BEE was... He was surprised that I managed to figure it out, I was surprised that my guess was right too.. HAHAHA... Perhaps my brain started functioning.... Hahaha... I guess I can now graduate happily, without regret... Haha... Too bad that my honey managed to find me out although his first guess was WRONG!! I thought I managed to con him... Hahaha.... Anyway, I managed to confuse him a little bit. Hehe... There is longer story to this honey and bee thingy because I myself ruined my initial plan. Haha.. And that story just explained how blur I was....
4. One last thing that I can remember for now.... Haha.... There are some other things but forgive me because I always have memory loss... Well, I am never a good game player, especially for those games which need to use my brain. Just like what I said just now, I think my brain doesn't function well most of the time. Haha... BUT, I was proud of myself that I managed to get the answer TWICE for the CLUEDO game although there were people who were one step faster than me!!!! Never mind... Haha.... Also, I managed to get the clue of the games Edmond asked us to guess. Haha... Proudnya... Honestly, I am very bad at all these but somehow my brain worked that night... Haha.... But also sorry la my teammates for pictionary, because I did not know how to draw ENGLAND.... Hehe... I did not know the flag of ENGLAND.... I am deeply sorry about it. Now I will remember the flag of ENGLAND for the rest of my life...
Ok, still, it became a very long post... But who cares... This is the only way to help me remember things that I really want them to be remembered since I always memory loss.... This is not really long-term or even short-term memory loss... Maybe I should consider it as "Random Memory Loss"? =)
This year, I think we had the most campers ever since I came to USM. I am proud to say that I have never missed any of the family camp. For each camp, I brought back different things with me. I was really glad that many first year students have decided to join the camp and also for those like Yee Ting and Siaw Ping who joined us as well. For me, I think it will take me a lot of courage to join a camp that most people have already known each other but I do not really know them at all. I hope they enjoyed the time as well.
This year we had our camp at the seaside - Christian Conventional Centre located at Batu Ferringgi. My first year, we went to a "kuala" - Kuala Gula; Second year, we went up to a hill - Maxwell Hill; Third year, we went to resort - Cinta Sayang Resort; This year, we went to the beach - Batu Ferringgi. This place was a very familiar place for me. I had a lot of memories at this place too. But that's not what I want to talk about for this post.
Hm... Where should I start?? Ok, when we were leaving from campus, it was raining very heavily but I can see that everyone was still very excited. It only took us about 45 minutes to 1 hour to reach our destination i guess because I only managed to sleep for a very short time. I really like the place a lot. It's really a place for camp and I always like staying in dorms for camps. Only for camps... Hahaha...
Initially I wanted to write down everything that I remember but it will be too lengthy. Perhaps I just want to share about few things that touched my heart or significant to me.
1. As I have said earlier that I only went with expectation to enjoy the camp rather than learning from the camp. Haha... Sounded like I did not trust the speaker... Of course that's not true. I knew very well that Annette is a very powerful speaker. But for those previous camps, I remembered I always pray that God will speak to me and let me see new things. For this camp, I have no preparation at all. But even the first session on the very first night has touched me so much. It was as though the voice was meant to speak directly to me personally. Those words pierced into my heart. After the first session, I was really eagerly expecting the coming sessions. I admit that I have said that I wanted to change in many many camps. But everytime it didn't really work. Though I know that I have not totally changed but I have experienced the changes in me that make me want to do better so that one day I can really fulfill what I have said to HIM, what I have promised HIM. After I came to uni, I didn't really know since when or why that I have lost the confidence I had in myself. So many times that I tried to avoid things and thought that someone greater than me would handle it better. But the day I left the camp, I brought along the seed which Annette gave to us and asked us to name it. I have named my seed - Mustard Seed (though it is a green bean) but there's a Sunday school song which talks about the Mustard seed has grown into big tree which gives shade to people, place for birds to build the nest. I truly hope that one day I can be a blessing to people around even there's so little that I can do and can bear the fruit of the spirit. Also, I was reminded of a song I have learnt from the National Conference. "Leaving my past behind, knowing much more I'll find, taking the step into the unknown..." After these in uni ( sound like many many years), things that happened really helped to know more about my own self like things I didn't let go after all the years, the struggles, the strongholds that I tried to deny. But they have all made me stronger.
2. I really managed to have very good fellowship with the juniors especially those who were in my group. For some of them, I really managed to spend time talking and chatting with them. For some, I sang songs together with them. For some, I played different different games with them. Even for some, I let them "bully" me for the sake of entertaining them since they did not have anything else better to do. Hah! Though they called me "senior" or "auntie" but they still played with me as if I am one of their age. Sometimes, I was kind of worry that I might miss out or neglect someone, making them feel abandoned. But these juniors really impressed me. They will find their activities and hang out with people not only from their batch. Cool~~ Because I know that sometimes I will tend to stick to people I have already known very well. I was really blessed by them.
3. This year, I finally managed to guess who my BEE was... He was surprised that I managed to figure it out, I was surprised that my guess was right too.. HAHAHA... Perhaps my brain started functioning.... Hahaha... I guess I can now graduate happily, without regret... Haha... Too bad that my honey managed to find me out although his first guess was WRONG!! I thought I managed to con him... Hahaha.... Anyway, I managed to confuse him a little bit. Hehe... There is longer story to this honey and bee thingy because I myself ruined my initial plan. Haha.. And that story just explained how blur I was....
4. One last thing that I can remember for now.... Haha.... There are some other things but forgive me because I always have memory loss... Well, I am never a good game player, especially for those games which need to use my brain. Just like what I said just now, I think my brain doesn't function well most of the time. Haha... BUT, I was proud of myself that I managed to get the answer TWICE for the CLUEDO game although there were people who were one step faster than me!!!! Never mind... Haha.... Also, I managed to get the clue of the games Edmond asked us to guess. Haha... Proudnya... Honestly, I am very bad at all these but somehow my brain worked that night... Haha.... But also sorry la my teammates for pictionary, because I did not know how to draw ENGLAND.... Hehe... I did not know the flag of ENGLAND.... I am deeply sorry about it. Now I will remember the flag of ENGLAND for the rest of my life...
Ok, still, it became a very long post... But who cares... This is the only way to help me remember things that I really want them to be remembered since I always memory loss.... This is not really long-term or even short-term memory loss... Maybe I should consider it as "Random Memory Loss"? =)
Thursday, September 25, 2008
无题
一直以来我都很坚持，但最近或近几个月我的坚持开始动摇了。我需要答案，但我知道这个答案不是我一个人努力就可以找到，但可以和我努力的人却不在乎。。。我还能怎样？太多的话想说，却找不到聆听的人。。。我还应该执著吗？
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
CoNvO!!
The day after the OLR was our beloved seniors' convocation. As usual we went in big group to congratulate and share their happiness on their BIG DAY! Haha... But everytime when I went for convo, I just can;t help thinking whether I can escape convo... Haha... I'm just kidding. It only happens once in a life time unless I want to take another degree or PhD or master... Here goes another batch of seniors and now my batch is the older people now. And soon, it will be our turn. Haih~~~ I just hope that we can still keep in touch after we all graduate.... "Take care all my seniors and all the best in your work no matter where you are~~"
PS: Wanted to upload some photos of the convo but I just realized I have very little in my own camera. Gotta wait till I collect from the rest~~
Of course, as usual we did not end our trip to convo there in USM. This year we went to another place for steamboat feast... Wow... The food was quite nice. I enjoyed the ice cream a lot. Too bad Simon and I had to leave earlier because we have a bus to catch at 11.30p.m. in Parit Buntar. Sad~~~
PS: Wanted to upload some photos of the convo but I just realized I have very little in my own camera. Gotta wait till I collect from the rest~~
Of course, as usual we did not end our trip to convo there in USM. This year we went to another place for steamboat feast... Wow... The food was quite nice. I enjoyed the ice cream a lot. Too bad Simon and I had to leave earlier because we have a bus to catch at 11.30p.m. in Parit Buntar. Sad~~~
ONE LIFE REVOLUTION!!
Haha... I am now back in Parit Buntar before I leave for Alor Setar for the rest of my mid sem break. The week before the break was crazy, busy and exhausting. First was the ONE LIFE REVOLUTION in Gurney Plaza, Penang. Aaron, Simon and I went as volunteers to help out in the exhibition for two sessions. It was really AWESOME! The response was quite good. I really hope that those who have gone for the exhibit will bring home something with them. Yeah! One Life Do Something!! This exhibit actually got us pumped up... So Aaron and I were planning to help out in the Kuantan one as well... Haha... Perhaps anyone would wanna sponsor us the bus tickets???? Hahaha... I remembered the last day everyone (the crews and volunteers) just went crazy... Haha... The first day I was helping out in the clinic... And I realized that I so not suitable to work in the clinic... Haha... Then I went tp help out as usher. I enjoyed it though the people didn't really respond on the very first day and first shift somemore.
On the third day, last shift, I was helping at the merchandise area. Wow! The response was very very good... I think I enjoyed this the most... Haha...
As my personal experience in the exhibit, I went through the story of Srey Mom... It was really heart-breaking at first. But thank God that she has made it through. She is very strong and encouraged me in many ways.
I am looking forward for the one in Kuantan... But that still depends on Simon Chai whether he allows us to stay at his place. Haha...
Saturday, August 9, 2008
~~SeLaH~~
At first I was still thinking whether I should go for Selah or just stay in the room and sleep for the whole day. Somehow I have decided to go Selah... Now, I have no regret going to Selah...
I had a great time at Selah. We spent the morning in Air Itam Dam. I brought along my cross-stitch.. Yes, cross-stitch... I am glad to say that it is almost done... Just left a little bit more. I was sitting by the dam as I did my cross-stitch, then I saw two tortoises that swam in the water. They constantly came out to the surface to get some air I guess.. Then they went back into the water again. Somehow, that scene spoke to me that I need to give time to myself and God constantly even though I may already get used to the business of life. It is important not only to listen to myself but also to God. Yeah, I forgot to mention that it was a girl's Selah and I really enjoyed the fellowship of sisters. Haha....
In the afternoon, we went back to FES office where we did more reflections which really encouraged me and somehow gave me strength to face situation that I am in now. Though I was not given a clear answer of what I should do but it gave me peace in my heart and enabled me to look at things from other perspectives. I can say that my heart has never been this peaceful after so long of chaotic life... Haha... Not really chaotic la.. It is just that my mind and my heart were always been occupied by too many things that I might not even able to help anything. I enjoyed the time just to be quiet and be alone. I enjoyed the scenery and the beauty of nature and God's creation. I enjoyed the time sharing with others and hearing their comments. I simply enjoyed this day and I am thankful for what God has planned for me. "O Lord, You have examined my heart and know everything about me." Psalm 139:1 He knows what I need the most at this point of my life... And I know very well that all I need to do is HOLD ON TO HIM....
Thank you Lord for Your wonderful love....
I had a great time at Selah. We spent the morning in Air Itam Dam. I brought along my cross-stitch.. Yes, cross-stitch... I am glad to say that it is almost done... Just left a little bit more. I was sitting by the dam as I did my cross-stitch, then I saw two tortoises that swam in the water. They constantly came out to the surface to get some air I guess.. Then they went back into the water again. Somehow, that scene spoke to me that I need to give time to myself and God constantly even though I may already get used to the business of life. It is important not only to listen to myself but also to God. Yeah, I forgot to mention that it was a girl's Selah and I really enjoyed the fellowship of sisters. Haha....
In the afternoon, we went back to FES office where we did more reflections which really encouraged me and somehow gave me strength to face situation that I am in now. Though I was not given a clear answer of what I should do but it gave me peace in my heart and enabled me to look at things from other perspectives. I can say that my heart has never been this peaceful after so long of chaotic life... Haha... Not really chaotic la.. It is just that my mind and my heart were always been occupied by too many things that I might not even able to help anything. I enjoyed the time just to be quiet and be alone. I enjoyed the scenery and the beauty of nature and God's creation. I enjoyed the time sharing with others and hearing their comments. I simply enjoyed this day and I am thankful for what God has planned for me. "O Lord, You have examined my heart and know everything about me." Psalm 139:1 He knows what I need the most at this point of my life... And I know very well that all I need to do is HOLD ON TO HIM....
Thank you Lord for Your wonderful love....
Thursday, August 7, 2008
~Fruitful~
Wow... It has been so long since I last updated my blog... The last post was during LI I guess....
These two weeks are quite busy and eventful. Haha... I have finally selected my FYP title and got my title on Friday night. Thank GOD, I got the title I selected. Then I don't remember what really happened other days but I do remember I was really exhausted when it came to Friday. Many who went to prayer meeting would have seen how blur I was. And yet, I went to Sunway Carnival that afternoon to watch The X-Files which turned out to be quite disappointing. Perhaps I was expecting some aliens to come out... Haha.... But as I remembered, I was not a big fan of The X-Files series.... Then I had a wonderful dinner at Manhattan Fish Market in Autocity with Simon. The food was great, the fellowship was great~~ When I came back to campus, I realized that I need to prepare for my LI poster as I won't be around during the weekend and the exhibition will be on the coming Thursday. I only managed to sleep around 3.00a.m..
The next morning, Simon, Aaron and I went for the volunteer's training of the One Life Revolution Exhibition that will be going on next week. The training was held in KDU, Penang. It was a very informative training where we learned not only about things we need to do during the exhibition, but we also learned more detailed about HIV/AIDS. Right after the training, both Simon and I rushed back to Parit Buntar to meet up with Sze-lyn and Jason to go to KL for PASSION CONFERENCE!! I have no regret going to the conference despite we have to rush back to Parit Buntar the night itself because few of us have class and the stupid OBE Accreditation which are unmissable. Anyway, Passion was AWESOME! The last concert I went to was Planetshaker's which was during my first year in uni. Somehow I enjoyed more during this Passion KL. The whole thing was really great. The story shared by Louie really touched me. I enjoyed the worship so so much until I almost lost my voice.. Haha... Managed to meet some of them from Camp Cameron. I was so happy to be able to meet Ai Wei~~ We started our journey back after the supper at Murni. This time, it's turn for Simon to drive. After we entered the highway, he was too tired, so I took over and drove. I was super sleepy so I kept pinching myself to keep myself awake... Hehe... I only managed to drive until Simpang Pulai and I knew very well I cannot "tahan" anymore. So poor Simon had to drive again. We reached Parit Buntar around 5.00a.m.. Wow~~ Thank GOD for protection.
After coming back here, everyone who went still very excited with the Passion KL and I believe we did keep Passion Jakarta in our prayer. After reading the 268blog, I am sure that God has touched many more people there. Hallelujah!!!
Then I started to rush for my poster. Thank GOD that I managed to finish "cut and paste" in one night... Hehe... This part was easy actually. Just the selecting info and printing part took a lot of time. Then two "short" assignments came and I needed to prepare for the bible study... I was very nervous because I was my first time leading bible study. I do not know why am I so tension or what to be afraid of, but STILL I was scared... Hahaha.... Anyway, I have made it through the first. Thanks a lot to Derrick who has helped me to answer a lot of questions asked by my dear CG member, Simon Chai. But his questions did help me to learn more also la... Just that I became tension when I do not know how to answer. Hehe...
Well, later will be my LI exhibition already. Am I fully prepared? Not really.. Haha.. I am supposed to read my report to refresh me of what I have learnt but I ended up blogging. That's what I always do - get diverted easily... Ok, so I should end here. But I am really excited now about the One Life Exhibition next week and also my spoken English presentation!! Please pray that the exhibition will bring great impact to all who will come... Hope to see you guys there if possible too...
These two weeks are quite busy and eventful. Haha... I have finally selected my FYP title and got my title on Friday night. Thank GOD, I got the title I selected. Then I don't remember what really happened other days but I do remember I was really exhausted when it came to Friday. Many who went to prayer meeting would have seen how blur I was. And yet, I went to Sunway Carnival that afternoon to watch The X-Files which turned out to be quite disappointing. Perhaps I was expecting some aliens to come out... Haha.... But as I remembered, I was not a big fan of The X-Files series.... Then I had a wonderful dinner at Manhattan Fish Market in Autocity with Simon. The food was great, the fellowship was great~~ When I came back to campus, I realized that I need to prepare for my LI poster as I won't be around during the weekend and the exhibition will be on the coming Thursday. I only managed to sleep around 3.00a.m..
The next morning, Simon, Aaron and I went for the volunteer's training of the One Life Revolution Exhibition that will be going on next week. The training was held in KDU, Penang. It was a very informative training where we learned not only about things we need to do during the exhibition, but we also learned more detailed about HIV/AIDS. Right after the training, both Simon and I rushed back to Parit Buntar to meet up with Sze-lyn and Jason to go to KL for PASSION CONFERENCE!! I have no regret going to the conference despite we have to rush back to Parit Buntar the night itself because few of us have class and the stupid OBE Accreditation which are unmissable. Anyway, Passion was AWESOME! The last concert I went to was Planetshaker's which was during my first year in uni. Somehow I enjoyed more during this Passion KL. The whole thing was really great. The story shared by Louie really touched me. I enjoyed the worship so so much until I almost lost my voice.. Haha... Managed to meet some of them from Camp Cameron. I was so happy to be able to meet Ai Wei~~ We started our journey back after the supper at Murni. This time, it's turn for Simon to drive. After we entered the highway, he was too tired, so I took over and drove. I was super sleepy so I kept pinching myself to keep myself awake... Hehe... I only managed to drive until Simpang Pulai and I knew very well I cannot "tahan" anymore. So poor Simon had to drive again. We reached Parit Buntar around 5.00a.m.. Wow~~ Thank GOD for protection.
After coming back here, everyone who went still very excited with the Passion KL and I believe we did keep Passion Jakarta in our prayer. After reading the 268blog, I am sure that God has touched many more people there. Hallelujah!!!
Then I started to rush for my poster. Thank GOD that I managed to finish "cut and paste" in one night... Hehe... This part was easy actually. Just the selecting info and printing part took a lot of time. Then two "short" assignments came and I needed to prepare for the bible study... I was very nervous because I was my first time leading bible study. I do not know why am I so tension or what to be afraid of, but STILL I was scared... Hahaha.... Anyway, I have made it through the first. Thanks a lot to Derrick who has helped me to answer a lot of questions asked by my dear CG member, Simon Chai. But his questions did help me to learn more also la... Just that I became tension when I do not know how to answer. Hehe...
Well, later will be my LI exhibition already. Am I fully prepared? Not really.. Haha.. I am supposed to read my report to refresh me of what I have learnt but I ended up blogging. That's what I always do - get diverted easily... Ok, so I should end here. But I am really excited now about the One Life Exhibition next week and also my spoken English presentation!! Please pray that the exhibition will bring great impact to all who will come... Hope to see you guys there if possible too...
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